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[xcherrylipsx]

I have fucked up majorly.
I have lost all my friends and alienated everyone else.
No one will speak to me.
I'm black and blue.
So.
I'm quitting drinking, smoking, everything.
I'm finding a new job and getting the fuck out of here.
If I didn't hate myself so much, I would kill myself.
But I feel I deserve this misery so I can't.
And I do deserve it.