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[xcherry_bellex]

i want to swim away but dont know how
sometimes it feel just like i'm falling in the ocean
let the rain of what i feel right now... come down.

i wanna know what it's like to be awkward and innocent, not belligerent.
i wanna know how it feels to be useful and pertinent and have common sense.
let me in, let me in to the club.
because i wanna belong, and i need to get strong.
and if memory serves, i'm addicted to words and they're useless.

i'm about to explode.
i'm a mess, i'm a wreck.
i am perfect and I have learned to accept:
all my problems and short comings,
because i am so visceral yet deeply inept.

i'm afraid I'm alone and entirely useless.