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Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
all the ones around me,
I cared for and most of all I loved
but I can't see myself that way
Please don't forget me
I'm terrified. I know I made the wrong decision and it's all my fault. I'm jealous of everyone and I have no right to be. Everyone did the right thing and got what they want and I don't blame you guys. I'm happy for you. Now can't you fake happiness for me? Is it really that hard?
My dreams mean nothing now all because of this one month. People tell me I'll be fine, and I know I will be, but it's going to take a lot of time to get there. I have compromised myself and even though it's going to happen I don't want it to. I'm ashamed. I'm ashamed of my decision.