and there's reason to believe maybe this year will be better than the last...
so i don't really want to do a re-cap of 2005. for the most part, it sucked, honestly. albeit, i had my good times, and i have my fond memories...but it was just kinda of a blah year. i spent way too much of it loathing upon things that were out of my control, so i feel like i wasted a lot of time. truthfully, though, i really don't want to sit here and ramble about everything that pissed me off about 2005, so i'll concentrate on the positive, because im in a good mood right at this particular moment. it had its good parts as well. i figured out what i want to do with my life (for the most part, although that is most likely subject to change), i figured out a lot of things about myself, and on a personal level, i feel like i accomplished a lot. the new year's resolution to stop biting my nails i think ended within 48 hours of its creation, but i'll try and most likely fail again this year. i didnt go to church nearly at all, with the exception of the summer...that part kind of sucked, but it is very possible that ive developed a new relationship with God. It's not exactly where I want it to be, but i think it might be a little closer. anyhoo.
enough about the past more about the future. i have a good feeling about 2006. im just really starting to like the situation i am in right now. i love school a lot, and im finding myself enjoying the time i have there a lot more than last year, even though the work is twice as hard. aaaannnnd nate comes home at the endish part of 2006, so that is definitely a bonus. man, i miss that kid. i really need to write him so he knows his friends are still alive. speaking of mormons, i saw chris english tonight. now, i realize that most of the people who read this, with the exception of kasey and amy, probably dont know who chris is, but i dont care, i saw him tonight, and it was pants. probably amy is the only person to understand that last sentence, with the exception of perhaps a random english livejournal stalker, which is ironic because i was just talking about chris english. wow, that was quite the spurt of randomness. amazing. anway, more about 2006. i have high ambitions. i realize now, that i really dont have anything else to say about this particular topic, so ill proceed to the next.
i found out the other day that for my TE (teacher education) class next semester, i will be tutoring an african refugee at the refugee center in lansing. im really pumped about that. it's my first chance to really make an impact on someone's life. that having been said, i dont expect to be the guiding light in this kid's life, but it will feel good to help someone who is really in need. speaking of which, when we weent to white castle today, some really random guy started talking to me. he saw that i was wearing a michigan state hat, and asked if i went there, then proceeded to ask my major. when i told him elementary eduaction, he was in awe. he that it was the most amazing thing to have the patience to deal with kids on a daily basis. he also talked about how people are putting lectures on ipods, and queried me about my political orientation. this man was random...i mean really random. but i guess he was nice enough...i just found myself wondering if this is what he did. because from the looks of it, he had a pretty set routine of coming into white castle, and talking about everything he had read in his recently purchased edition of USA today. he was very emphatic about his querky little facts. and now, as im typing here tonight, i find myself once again, pondering, why am i writing an entire paragraph about a man i met in white castle. time to move on.
i pushed sarah into a snowy bush tonight. that was fun.
tomorrow is sledding and daytime scary movie with the valdivias and company. company being chris english and perhaps sarah verstrate and siblings. fun once again.
i feel like a lazy slob because i just get up at noon, dont work, and just sit. its kind of a nice break though from the constant state of frustration and anxiety that school presents. speaking of presents, i have yet to do any shopping. perhaps i will do some of that tomorrow.
my parents are renewing their vows. arent they cute.
ok i believe im done. to the new year!
i feel as though i rambled tonight, so i will reward those of you who sat through my ramblings with picture of a very handsome person.
the end.