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i love him so fucking much.
i honestly had my doubts when we got back together about how it would go. but now after a few months of this, and the two years before that, i know this is right.
september 5th 2002.
every decision and part of my life has somehow been affected by my love for him since that day so long ago. this is happiness.
we have had two fights in the past 4 months. TWO. this isnt amzing, this is how a relationship should be i know. but its not how ours was. and now we have a healthy relationship. if it were the same, i would walk away from it right now, and he would too. but its not, its great, its love. im so fucking happy and im even happier that hes as fucking happy as i am. :)
so fuck all of you who said it was stupid for us to get back togetther, and all of you who said it would be the same. and hey, fuck any of you who thought it mattered to YOU what WE did. guess we proved you wrong, guess you lost your best friend, bet you feel stupid. despite all that, maybe one day you will change, and if you do, we'd love to be your friend again. (if you couldnt figure it out, thats only to one person..and if you dont know who the person is you dont know anything about me so it doesnt matter).
whew, sorry about that.
so..back to me..
HA I FEEL LIKE THAT GIRL WHO SHOWED UP AT THE SLUMBER PARTY AND GOT MAD AT US IF WE TRIED TO TALK ABOUT ANYTHING BUT HER. we didnt even know that girl. she was weird. dude that slumber party was freaking fun. that just reminded me, last night adam emily elizabeth and i went to dinner at oakcrest ( i had the worst food ever..minus the fried okra which was awesome!) and this girl whos a cook there, her exhusband would call then hang up and call again ...over and over for an hour wanting to talk to her and he was insane and they had to call the police. and lena was working,thats why we went.. and she kept having to answer the phone when he called. he was threatening to come up there and kill lena and things since she wouldnt give the phone to the woman. and after that we went to dannys and stuff..but then we went to tate street and that coffee and cookie thing was so good and we saw james! i havent seen james in forever. he got all his hair cut off. then me and boo came home and cuddled. hah so i didnt plan on wirting and of that.
so anyways...
i guess all i had to say is im really happy. this will sound weird because its still the same relationship, its still the same people...but we changed so much in our ..2 month (i think) break.. if i had known our relationship could be like this, i would have never put up with the way it was before. things i did, things he did... (but mainly me) were so stupid. we took time apart and ended up learining how to have the perfect relationship. our relationship before was great, i loved him then just like i love him now ( ..of course since true love doesnt go away, a past LOVE just fades with time into something less painful, something to keep in your memories, something to learn from...) but we fought too much. we fought at least once a week. and because things are better now, and becasue we know how to make eachother happy..things are just so much better..and lighthearted. everything is happy. we are carefree together.
"Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself. Love posesses not nor would it be posessed; For love is sufficient unto love."
"Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another your bread but eat not from the same loaf.
Sing and dance togetehr and be joyus, but let each one of you be alone...
...Give your hearts, but not into eachothers keeping.
For only the hand of life can contain you hearts.
And stand together, but not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and cypress grow not in eachother's shadow."
-The Prophet
go read that book its by Kahlil Gibran. you wont regret it and it will change your life.
sorry this was all about my love life but thats what i feel and thats what i want to write.
i honestly had my doubts when we got back together about how it would go. but now after a few months of this, and the two years before that, i know this is right.
september 5th 2002.
every decision and part of my life has somehow been affected by my love for him since that day so long ago. this is happiness.
we have had two fights in the past 4 months. TWO. this isnt amzing, this is how a relationship should be i know. but its not how ours was. and now we have a healthy relationship. if it were the same, i would walk away from it right now, and he would too. but its not, its great, its love. im so fucking happy and im even happier that hes as fucking happy as i am. :)
so fuck all of you who said it was stupid for us to get back togetther, and all of you who said it would be the same. and hey, fuck any of you who thought it mattered to YOU what WE did. guess we proved you wrong, guess you lost your best friend, bet you feel stupid. despite all that, maybe one day you will change, and if you do, we'd love to be your friend again. (if you couldnt figure it out, thats only to one person..and if you dont know who the person is you dont know anything about me so it doesnt matter).
whew, sorry about that.
so..back to me..
HA I FEEL LIKE THAT GIRL WHO SHOWED UP AT THE SLUMBER PARTY AND GOT MAD AT US IF WE TRIED TO TALK ABOUT ANYTHING BUT HER. we didnt even know that girl. she was weird. dude that slumber party was freaking fun. that just reminded me, last night adam emily elizabeth and i went to dinner at oakcrest ( i had the worst food ever..minus the fried okra which was awesome!) and this girl whos a cook there, her exhusband would call then hang up and call again ...over and over for an hour wanting to talk to her and he was insane and they had to call the police. and lena was working,thats why we went.. and she kept having to answer the phone when he called. he was threatening to come up there and kill lena and things since she wouldnt give the phone to the woman. and after that we went to dannys and stuff..but then we went to tate street and that coffee and cookie thing was so good and we saw james! i havent seen james in forever. he got all his hair cut off. then me and boo came home and cuddled. hah so i didnt plan on wirting and of that.
so anyways...
i guess all i had to say is im really happy. this will sound weird because its still the same relationship, its still the same people...but we changed so much in our ..2 month (i think) break.. if i had known our relationship could be like this, i would have never put up with the way it was before. things i did, things he did... (but mainly me) were so stupid. we took time apart and ended up learining how to have the perfect relationship. our relationship before was great, i loved him then just like i love him now ( ..of course since true love doesnt go away, a past LOVE just fades with time into something less painful, something to keep in your memories, something to learn from...) but we fought too much. we fought at least once a week. and because things are better now, and becasue we know how to make eachother happy..things are just so much better..and lighthearted. everything is happy. we are carefree together.
"Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself. Love posesses not nor would it be posessed; For love is sufficient unto love."
"Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another your bread but eat not from the same loaf.
Sing and dance togetehr and be joyus, but let each one of you be alone...
...Give your hearts, but not into eachothers keeping.
For only the hand of life can contain you hearts.
And stand together, but not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and cypress grow not in eachother's shadow."
-The Prophet
go read that book its by Kahlil Gibran. you wont regret it and it will change your life.
sorry this was all about my love life but thats what i feel and thats what i want to write.