will you still love me tomorrow? knowing everything i've done?
"you used to be so carefree and happy michael.... what happened to you??.."
those words keep ringing in my head. when i woke up this morning, i took a quick glance at my 1990-1991 kindergarten class photo from my Floresta days. there was little blonde Michael.. missing teeth, but smiley as could be. i miss those days. i've let the bad things in life eat away at me.. and now i'm torn up inside. i seriously could not tell you how i feel about anything, if i even feel. i feel weak. i feel used. i feel ugly... but i don't feel. i wish so badly i could jump up and break free from these chains ive slowly wrapped myself up in and now are kiling me.
...but this isn't about pitying myself. this is a sincere apology.
... i seriously cannot express how sorry i am to all of you who tried to stop me from becoming this way. i would take back everything i've done and said, if it were that easy.
i hate myself. ...no fucking more. it ends right now.
those words keep ringing in my head. when i woke up this morning, i took a quick glance at my 1990-1991 kindergarten class photo from my Floresta days. there was little blonde Michael.. missing teeth, but smiley as could be. i miss those days. i've let the bad things in life eat away at me.. and now i'm torn up inside. i seriously could not tell you how i feel about anything, if i even feel. i feel weak. i feel used. i feel ugly... but i don't feel. i wish so badly i could jump up and break free from these chains ive slowly wrapped myself up in and now are kiling me.
...but this isn't about pitying myself. this is a sincere apology.
... i seriously cannot express how sorry i am to all of you who tried to stop me from becoming this way. i would take back everything i've done and said, if it were that easy.
i hate myself. ...no fucking more. it ends right now.