silverrrbelllllssss by dean martin+ ancient frosty the snowman
Dear Journal, I sHALL CALL YOU Esidora.
Lately Esidora my life's been slightly more interesting. The last day I went to school was last friday because unfortuneately I broke my hand. HAH What a rather intensely dramatic way too. Punching a friggin' locker...I was just freaking out so bad and I prefer anger to tears...anyway that was the worst day of my life so far..my math 10 foundations class, the hospital staff lmao random ppl all seeing me cry hahaha pms and feeling overwhelmed to the extreme and the docter thoight he hurt me what a joke he was anyway...didn't even put on my splint right or try to freeze the hand like they did at QEII.
After the long ass wait w/ dad and bob up there,with the eccentric man who was staring at dads lower body says dad and trembled when he made bob touch his nipple and speggetti burned on skin graft scars...finally i got in...it was bizarre having my hand be mushed about but not really feeling it. The eccentric Mr.Doyle kissed my head when he left:)
So I quit school...well stopped going. I FEEL SO FRIGGIN'free and de stressed but i will miss the prom and march break quebec trip and friends:/
I plan on going back next year or going to write my ged in community college or there's adult highschool...
The plans now are to go to Banff. Bob and I and make money workin in the hotels/living there? or maybe just for a little while... who knows we only will when we get out there. So i'm selling weed to save money and it's been goin pretty well...we've been smoking a little like everyday but i think i decided to quit cause it makes me feel like a dirtbag, and i fibd when we're around ppl i dislike it...some ppl i can't believe how much(excuse vularity esidora) shit pours out of some ppl's mouths. I'M aware everyone talks about ppl but i nevver wanna be the kind of person who sits there and tries to make someone feel bad, or says certain things and wants them to seem like they have hidden meanings ( usually of the hurtful or assholish nature). J ust people...we equal shit. Not always but that to me does,... i just wanted to feel care free and go into my own little world last night..like i do usually but it's like people need stress or drama or rude jokes to surive...
I wish he would get that I don't wish to talk about bsghsgs1457hdgf with him.
it's a sore topic for obvious reasons AND alllllllllll there is between us is frckin' drama i can't even talk to him without us getting into a fight i just see him too much i think... and really there doesn't seem like theirs anything left right now but maybe that will change. He loves pressure...to put it on me i feel like, even though he would disagree.I think him and her should get married...they'd be almost perfect for eachother in a creepy way.I dislike that i'm always there and always unwanted maybe next time i won't be there.Saves a silly live journal rant? haha.. Lifes just about more to me then alliances/betrayal/friendship/mistrust issues/how many backs got you/etc. theres such beauty in everything when your being strangled and suffocated by hands you love, it's best to beee alonnneee....wolves run in pacts but are often alone. I love wolves...i'm gonna go look them up right now.Ithinkshewants him more than i do.
I really missed missy cause she's such a hippy:) YAY TOMORROW I GET TO SEE HERRR...wee
i feel like i'm on the right path i just need a little more planning and knowledge of course money to get to my destination...
I'm gonna miss so many lovlies if we do get the means to go to the mountains...nothings certain yet but what ever is i suppose?
peace and love
care.iee
Lately Esidora my life's been slightly more interesting. The last day I went to school was last friday because unfortuneately I broke my hand. HAH What a rather intensely dramatic way too. Punching a friggin' locker...I was just freaking out so bad and I prefer anger to tears...anyway that was the worst day of my life so far..my math 10 foundations class, the hospital staff lmao random ppl all seeing me cry hahaha pms and feeling overwhelmed to the extreme and the docter thoight he hurt me what a joke he was anyway...didn't even put on my splint right or try to freeze the hand like they did at QEII.
After the long ass wait w/ dad and bob up there,with the eccentric man who was staring at dads lower body says dad and trembled when he made bob touch his nipple and speggetti burned on skin graft scars...finally i got in...it was bizarre having my hand be mushed about but not really feeling it. The eccentric Mr.Doyle kissed my head when he left:)
So I quit school...well stopped going. I FEEL SO FRIGGIN'free and de stressed but i will miss the prom and march break quebec trip and friends:/
I plan on going back next year or going to write my ged in community college or there's adult highschool...
The plans now are to go to Banff. Bob and I and make money workin in the hotels/living there? or maybe just for a little while... who knows we only will when we get out there. So i'm selling weed to save money and it's been goin pretty well...we've been smoking a little like everyday but i think i decided to quit cause it makes me feel like a dirtbag, and i fibd when we're around ppl i dislike it...some ppl i can't believe how much(excuse vularity esidora) shit pours out of some ppl's mouths. I'M aware everyone talks about ppl but i nevver wanna be the kind of person who sits there and tries to make someone feel bad, or says certain things and wants them to seem like they have hidden meanings ( usually of the hurtful or assholish nature). J ust people...we equal shit. Not always but that to me does,... i just wanted to feel care free and go into my own little world last night..like i do usually but it's like people need stress or drama or rude jokes to surive...
I wish he would get that I don't wish to talk about bsghsgs1457hdgf with him.
it's a sore topic for obvious reasons AND alllllllllll there is between us is frckin' drama i can't even talk to him without us getting into a fight i just see him too much i think... and really there doesn't seem like theirs anything left right now but maybe that will change. He loves pressure...to put it on me i feel like, even though he would disagree.I think him and her should get married...they'd be almost perfect for eachother in a creepy way.I dislike that i'm always there and always unwanted maybe next time i won't be there.Saves a silly live journal rant? haha.. Lifes just about more to me then alliances/betrayal/friendship/mistrust issues/how many backs got you/etc. theres such beauty in everything when your being strangled and suffocated by hands you love, it's best to beee alonnneee....wolves run in pacts but are often alone. I love wolves...i'm gonna go look them up right now.Ithinkshewants him more than i do.
I really missed missy cause she's such a hippy:) YAY TOMORROW I GET TO SEE HERRR...wee
i feel like i'm on the right path i just need a little more planning and knowledge of course money to get to my destination...
I'm gonna miss so many lovlies if we do get the means to go to the mountains...nothings certain yet but what ever is i suppose?
peace and love
care.iee