she get it from her mamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Mar 03, 2005 20:20


well life is great right now

everything is pretty much going good

School:= ok im decent in most of my classes not behind in anything really besides my personal finance class but who gives a shit about SPAZ anyway? lol i dont think i have anything lower than a b- so thats good. progress reports are coming out soon - its going to be average no suprises i think? well then theres always mrs holdsworth. she always has some shitty suprise for me with giving me a comment that i never even knew existed untill i saw it on mine, but oh well the bitch hates me,what am I to do? NOTHING lol

Family:  I'm on pretty good terms with my family as of now no arguments besides petty little ones that end in laughter so its all good. im supposed to be grounded but i have beeen going out to places here and there no problem so i really dont know whats up with that, no complaints here dont you  worry lol. i never see my dad anymore but in a way that is a good thing. we dont fight as much because we dont have time to, so when we do talk its nice conversation because we miss each other's company. i like the fact hes not home at night because i can do what ever i want and cosbie has come over every night :) and eaten dinner with us lol hes our new addition to the family  now  its cute heheh

<3  Love life <3

this category is exellent as of now- I'm lovin' it-that just sounded cheesy because of mcdonalds lol

its just really nice when you find someone you connect with and get along with so easily.. it  feels as though i have found a perfect match  in what has seemed like an endless game of memory and something in my life has been completed. nothing forever of course i am not that crazy to think something like that  but as for now he is most certainly a keeper,  for the time being that is LOL. I am dealing with this relationship differently though. Previous relationships are the best in teaching you what not to do and what to do in future ones. I have promised myself not to make any long term thing and just to take it one day at a time. I would hope to think and have this feeling that this one might last a while, but ya never know. whatever happens, happens- because everything happens for a reason right? RIGHT for example the thought of him going to college at the end of the summer in Vermont is on my mind at times, so i dont want to get into something serious and have it end so soon ya know? but as the quote says best "its better to have loved and lived than to never love at all" and its 100% true well it is in my book. but i am not going to hold any of my feelings back i am going to just let it flow and go for the ride and if i fall in love, LET ME FALL.....

drama: ehhh well this category isnt so great right now- im getting rather lazy with it and i do not have my lines memorized what so ever and that is beginning to create a tid bit of a problem. I know its my fault, no one else's i just have to get some motivation and memorize it already. i have a week i think i can do it. im not really interested in it anymore i tend to lose interest in things rather quickly as soon as they lose their appeal to me and its a bad habit i need to get rid of. i call it the little kid syndrome because everybody goes through it while their young, and MOST people grow out of it but not me. its like something gets your attention and u really like it, it seems fun and your all for it so you join or whatever it is that you do and then its fine for a while and your having fun andthen it just isnt fun anymore and you get so bored with it and UHHH i hate it i used to do it all the time with sports i think i have played almost every sport there is for about maybe a year some longer than others but idk it is GAY point blank. i want to get back into liking drama again because i want to do well in the play but its just so hard when you really arent friends with any  of the people in it. yea its cool to meet new people and make friends YEA im all for it and i have tried for months now, but it seems as though these people just arent my thing. i usually get along with most people and dont get me wrong i get along with all of them like no serious problems or anything but i just dont act myself around them and always end up sitting by myself most of the time and it sucks doing that for 2 and a half hours. some of the people i have opened more up to though- i just hope it gets better.. DAMN IT I MISS RACHEL SO MUCH you have no idea- i wonder if shell read this and get happy because i wrote that.. lol

well yea cosbie gave me an adderol today so i can focus on writing this paper and of course im not doing it but its like almost 9 and im not tired thats a fucking first and im writing so much on this damn thing i just keep going and going and going like the fuckin energizer bunny lol im so awake its crazy ill def. get this paper done for him THE HMS CHALLENGER IS SO FUCKING BORING let me tell YOU just in case you were unaware.. so i kinda dont want to deal with the whole prom thing at ALL. like every day i hear some fucking story from someone complaining about how their limo plans got fucked up or how they dont know whos gona be in it or how their dress didnt fit etc. etc. i quite frankly am sick of hearing about it to tell you the truth and i want everyone to just shut the FUCK up  about it already- its only march i could only imagine what i am bound to hear come may.. i dont want to deal with any of that shit i am trying to avoid it but eventually i am going t ohave to start dress shopping and figuruing out all that shit- maybe this weekend? hmm  i dont know well see what happens. i brainstormed some limo arrangements today i was happy with that lol so far it will be me alex and shannon and then cosbie of course dan and who ever shannon decidees to bring. i suggested cory because i think that would be cute and fun. i also told bret to come in ours too so that would be 4 couples making 8 people i think thats enough right? now i need to look at prices ahhhhh I DONT WANAAAAAAAAAA! idk though i have to look more into it. ANYWAYs  aside from the prom shit my aunt and uncle came over today and i finally got my birthday presents from them yes i know my birhtday was in January but heyy lol its been a while.. i got 3 new shirts one with a cherry on it MY FAV. and Dawsons creek season 1 i was quite pleased! and the fact that they fit made it even better.damn my life is so good right now, do you ever wonder at times what you did to make YOU, out of all the people in this world to  get such the opportunity to experience life at its best without the sorrow? i know im not living some extravagent lifestyle all of a sudden but im happy with what i have and im not looking for more. im content with what i have and FOR once, for once in this life of mine im not sad and i wonder what the hell i did to deserve this and how long it shall last?

I hope it will last for a while....

DAMNNN i wrote alot today like a fucking boook man o man sorry about my non important ramblings guess i just had to let it out i guess? lol ok im done i HAVE to write this god damn paper goodnight everyone well not realy because i wont be sleeping for A WHILEEEEEE

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