don't know how lucky you are
lauren took the words right out of my mouth. i want someone to hold me at night, and to have fun wiht me during the day. i have 7 months left here in midland, so i know i don't want to be attached. it hurt my heart to have someone leave before, and i'd rather be selfish and not go through that again. i'm not saying i'm not open to falling again. i just know my situation, and i know i'd rather be comfortable with someone then running around, being bad or lonely.
i got hit by a couple walls in the past few days. found out i'd been decieved by someone close to me, and that it caused pain. it's a lonely pain, and i wish i could have...helped. relationships around me are falling apart and prospering at an alarming rate, i think thats why i just want the comfort of someone warm to hold me.
i'm sick of the false hopes and false realities that come from relationships. friendships, love, like, lust... the uncertainty makes me itchy at this point in my life.
i had a wonderful time on friday playing poker with the L9 girls and sweet onion boys. i'm almost good at that little game, or it could have just been luck. either or. there was great beer and numerous pictures taken.
i also rediscovered my love for dr pepper lip gloss while i was in target yesterday. i'd compleatly forgotten how much it made me smile.
this is all just ramblings. it doesn't lose credibility, they are my feelings, but i think i'm just overreaching today.
i got hit by a couple walls in the past few days. found out i'd been decieved by someone close to me, and that it caused pain. it's a lonely pain, and i wish i could have...helped. relationships around me are falling apart and prospering at an alarming rate, i think thats why i just want the comfort of someone warm to hold me.
i'm sick of the false hopes and false realities that come from relationships. friendships, love, like, lust... the uncertainty makes me itchy at this point in my life.
i had a wonderful time on friday playing poker with the L9 girls and sweet onion boys. i'm almost good at that little game, or it could have just been luck. either or. there was great beer and numerous pictures taken.
i also rediscovered my love for dr pepper lip gloss while i was in target yesterday. i'd compleatly forgotten how much it made me smile.
this is all just ramblings. it doesn't lose credibility, they are my feelings, but i think i'm just overreaching today.