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Well todays the last day of school. realllly gay. its been turned into this big ordeal. something about buses and emerson park, and yearbooks, but not if you skippe don senior skip day, but no one wants to go anyways, everyone just wants there yearbooks.
idk. its MAD gay
I want to just get my yearbook and get the ef out. it so dumb they waited til our last day, no ones gunna be able to sign them now.
my senior class is filled with retards. its retarded. i want to punch the senior officers in the face. fucking idiots.
amanda might fail. gay.
After school Im gettin my hair cut, and going to work out at the gym till 2 ish. then i got an interview at sunset. Im getting a job!! finally
then Im going to the Red Death show in Elmira with Matt Aaron and I think that Jeanie Shaw girl. I dont know her, but everyone talks about how sehs awsome and plays video games and junk.
uhh I love this band so much right now.. darkest hour. They make me so happy.
anyways, in other news. Me and Matt are awsome. We got into a dumb fight last night, but then he just stopped and hugged me and we just talked it out and everything was fine again. I like how me and him are.
I dont like how things with me and Brian turned out though. its retrded. I imed him today and he just stopped talkin to me. Hes like mad at me bc i told him i didnt want to hang out for a little while, just to give matt some time to get use to it. I mean, look what I did to Matt. I know if I was in his situation, and he even TALKED to that girl again, I would murder them both. I dont know. I just wish Brian would still talk to me and just be friends. Hes a good kid, and I dont like whats happened. I just want a little time for everything between everybody to get settled.
Whenever I think about what happened I get this gross stomache ache, and just feel like.. disgusting. Like I tainted me and Matts relationship. Im not saying this bc of brian, im saying this bc look what I did? I pulled the biggest scumbag move you could make. I feel so gross and guilty.
uh whatever. I need to stop. just stop. its over. i want to forget it happened and be with matt and be friends with brian.
im a fucking retard. what was i thinking.
idk. its MAD gay
I want to just get my yearbook and get the ef out. it so dumb they waited til our last day, no ones gunna be able to sign them now.
my senior class is filled with retards. its retarded. i want to punch the senior officers in the face. fucking idiots.
amanda might fail. gay.
After school Im gettin my hair cut, and going to work out at the gym till 2 ish. then i got an interview at sunset. Im getting a job!! finally
then Im going to the Red Death show in Elmira with Matt Aaron and I think that Jeanie Shaw girl. I dont know her, but everyone talks about how sehs awsome and plays video games and junk.
uhh I love this band so much right now.. darkest hour. They make me so happy.
anyways, in other news. Me and Matt are awsome. We got into a dumb fight last night, but then he just stopped and hugged me and we just talked it out and everything was fine again. I like how me and him are.
I dont like how things with me and Brian turned out though. its retrded. I imed him today and he just stopped talkin to me. Hes like mad at me bc i told him i didnt want to hang out for a little while, just to give matt some time to get use to it. I mean, look what I did to Matt. I know if I was in his situation, and he even TALKED to that girl again, I would murder them both. I dont know. I just wish Brian would still talk to me and just be friends. Hes a good kid, and I dont like whats happened. I just want a little time for everything between everybody to get settled.
Whenever I think about what happened I get this gross stomache ache, and just feel like.. disgusting. Like I tainted me and Matts relationship. Im not saying this bc of brian, im saying this bc look what I did? I pulled the biggest scumbag move you could make. I feel so gross and guilty.
uh whatever. I need to stop. just stop. its over. i want to forget it happened and be with matt and be friends with brian.
im a fucking retard. what was i thinking.