Venting
Hey everyone, I know not alot of you read this, and frankly that doesn't bother me. I'm just going to make a post to vent right now. Everything is going to hell right now. It seems no matter where I turn something wrong is bound to happen, it is inevitable. I'm being shreded apart here in this town. Everything I thought I could turn to has shattered. I hate this town, I hate this state, hell I could even say I hate my life. To feel as if you have no one to comfort you is a horrible feeling. My friend tried last night but to no avail. Drivng calms me down but not enough. I have punched the roof of my car so many times, and now you can see the dents show on the outside of the car on the roof. I hate that piece of junk and what it stands for. I believe my father is using me to extinguish what problems he has with my mother. I want to stop smoking but I don't want to. It relieves me, that sweet nicotine seems to be the only thing that can please me right now. I wish I had never told the truth I wish I just left when I was supposed to then none of this would be happening. I wonder now what life would have been if I had never found my father. I would have graduated from Bryan Station, and never have met the people I know now, thus not feeling the pain of loneliness. I can't wait to leave, if I come back is another question.