Counting my blessinngs
I have a goals I am going to accomplish today.
-I am not going to cry.
-I am not going to care if I get fat after today.
-I am going to devote my time to my homework.
-I am going to try to focus.
-I am going to clean my room.
-I am visiting my grandpa at the cemetery.
-I am not going to attach my phone to my hip.
Last night, left alot of things unclear to me. I just don't understand alot. And for the first time I think I just realized everything is going to be fine and I just gotta let God handle the rest. And things will work its own way out. I thought after last night's decision I will be content. I am still confused. But I can tell that things are going to change. I have no idea which direction anything will go anymore. I don't know what to expect. But I think I found some peace of mind. I know what I want but not what you want is always what you need. I don't need him. I want him. I am in love with him. And he is an AMAZING BOYFRIEND. It feels so good to say he's my boyrfriend. My heart belongs to him. Thanksgiving day is turning out better than I thought.
So the last couple days living has been the worst. But its got me to realize I've really got amazing friends. I know now who I can count on or are willing to give a lending ear when I needed it the most. I've never needed my friends as much as I did in the last couple days and I cant be anymore greatful enough. Today is Thanksgiving. And I have a lot of thanks to be giving to so many of you. I am so thankful for so many things that I take for granted everyday. Today, I am going to sit down and actually think this through. I am thankful for life. It's not perfect. Nothing is and I accept it.
I'm keeping my head up. Nothing stands on my way now.