no im not ok....

[xbumfightsx]

1.being here has really started to get to me. ive been pretty depressed as of recent. i just want to be with my friends :(

2. i got my schedule pretty solidified for the next couple months...
- NOVEMBER 8th - come back to CA
- weekend tours -
November 11, 2005
Petaluma, CA
     @ Phoenix Theatre
Bleeding Through, Day Of Contempt

November 13, 2005
Lancaster, CA
     @ Mr. Q's Billiards
Bleeding Through, Day Of Contempt

November 18, 2005
Fresno, CA
     @ The Belmont
Bleeding Through, Day Of Contempt

November 19, 2005
Santa Cruz, CA
     @ Veteran's Hall
Bleeding Through, Day Of Contempt

November 20, 2005
Orangevale, CA
     @ Boardwalk
Bleeding Through, Day Of Contempt,Embrace The End

November 25, 2005
Bakersfield, CA
     @ Jerry's Pizza
Bleeding Through, Day Of Contempt

November 26, 2005
San Luis Obispo, CA
     @ Downtown Brew
Bleeding Through, Day Of Contempt

November 27, 2005
Ventura, CA
     @ Alpine
Bleeding Through, Day Of Contempt

December 3, 2005
Las Vegas, NV
     @ The Clubhouse
Bleeding Through, Day Of Contempt

December 4, 2005
Flagstaff, AZ
     @ Lo-Fi Cafe (AZ)
Bleeding Through, Day Of Contempt

- back to hawaii - December 8th --> December 12
December 10, 2005
Honolulu, HI
     @ Pipeline Cafe
Bleeding Through

- BACK to California -
- Final Fight Tour - December 13th ---> December 23 :)
- Bleeding Through tour - January...

3. i dont know where im going to be staying inbetween all that. i dont care anymore. ill fucking sleep on the street if i have to.

4. my birthday is coming up!!! im going to finally be 21. time to get wasted.... i plan on calling my rich ass grandpa and asking him for a car. hopefully he goes for it.

5. how the fuck am i supposed to pick my top 10 CDs of the year, if such amazing CDs keep coming out. honestly.
- thrice,

- coldplay

- alkaline trio

- the spill canvas

- acceptance

- mae

- darkest hour

- reggie and the full effect

- minus the bear

- kanye west

- fall out boy

- death cab for cutie

- day of contempt

- meshuggah

- bleeding through

- modern life is war

- norma jean

- open hand

- saosin

- soliwork

- throwdown

- turmoil....
..... how the fuck am i supposed to pick a top 10 out of that? all of those CDs are groundbreaking. GUH. life is hard.

can i live with you plz?

good night

XXX