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im going to spend the next month working on myself.
im back to self distruct mode and it isnt helping me in anyway.
i think im going to write out a five year plan and live by it
also the company of men whom i dont share feelings with is in no way going to fix anything but instead make things far more complicated
i dont know why it is that i always seem to make that mistake.
no more.
not that i ever sleep around or anything crazy like that but just hangin out and leading on isnt nice and i dont mean to do it i really wish i could like people but i usually dont once and a while maybe but definatly not now and i cant force it upon myself no matter how nice some guys are too me

also.... now i have to have a different artist finish my tattoo
which ruins my tattoo
bacause shaun doesnt want to speak to me ever again.

i like how iv ended up like in the total shit house after that relationship
how does that work?
karma should have made it the other way around

but whatever im told eventualy this will make me stronger
everything always does.
when will things begin to make me wiser thats what i would like to know.