(no subject)
i havent updated in a while. i feel as if i have undergone a change in the past 3 months. or other people around me have. it seems like people that i use to hang out with 6 months ago are the ones i never talk to anymore. i barely ride, i work all the time, and when im not working, i normally just sit at home and do nothing. i always want to hang out, but the only people i want to hang out with are john jim and justin. im working all the time, which may be the cause for all of this. before my job i had all the time in the world to ride, go to shows, spend time with friends. now that time is drasticly cut down. i havent gone to a show in a while either. which can explain the absence of hanging out with people. my car has also become a big odsession in my life. i want to race, i want to make my car faster. i want to meet other people that race too. things are different though, school is practiclly over, summer is approaching rapidly. my birthday is on june 15th. thats 10 days from now. i didnt even realize how close it was. i would like a birthday party. a suprise one. ive always hoped of getting one for so many years. i would just be happy for more than a few people to wish me a happy birth day. birthdays are one of the few days i hate. ive never really liked them. they are depresing. your older, alone, and friendless on this day. if i could, i would just skip right over it.
im going to go and ride this week though. i need too. ive been craving it for a while. its apart of me that i have ignored too much. if things could go back to how they were last summer. last summer was amazing. even though i spent the whole summer with john and becky and alyssa, it was still amazing. thats what made it amazing...just us 4 people all the time. sleep overs like every night, i was barely home. but this summer is going to be nothing short of incredible. i just have to find a way to have fun around work. i want this summer to be liek last, exept twice more fun. something unforgettable. i want to go, see and do everything i possibly can. enjoy one last summer with my friends. before we all move on and go our seperate ways. scary shit.
i have work today at 4. i have 2 days off this week. i dont remembe which ones. but i am going to try and enjoy them.
i have 2 big projects due on june 13th. one for english and one for marketing. i havent started either. its the last thing i have to do for my highschool carreer. its scary.
im scared, your scared, we are all scared of this
im going to go and ride this week though. i need too. ive been craving it for a while. its apart of me that i have ignored too much. if things could go back to how they were last summer. last summer was amazing. even though i spent the whole summer with john and becky and alyssa, it was still amazing. thats what made it amazing...just us 4 people all the time. sleep overs like every night, i was barely home. but this summer is going to be nothing short of incredible. i just have to find a way to have fun around work. i want this summer to be liek last, exept twice more fun. something unforgettable. i want to go, see and do everything i possibly can. enjoy one last summer with my friends. before we all move on and go our seperate ways. scary shit.
i have work today at 4. i have 2 days off this week. i dont remembe which ones. but i am going to try and enjoy them.
i have 2 big projects due on june 13th. one for english and one for marketing. i havent started either. its the last thing i have to do for my highschool carreer. its scary.
im scared, your scared, we are all scared of this