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So it seems as though I have once again lost focus on what I want to do, and where I want to go in life. I've let other people have way too much influence on me and my choices... too many disctractions... I think my problem is that I'm always looking for someone... someone to spend my time with, someone to fill the time that should be spent on myself. I'm done neglecting myself... it makes me feel so selfish to say that I want to spend more time on myself, but for the past year and a half I've put every ounce of love, energy, and time in other people, and I lost touch with myself. I don't know who I am... not that I'm a "confused" person or anything, I'm just not familiar with myself anymore... Ok, so I'm confused... but not in that way... I'm done... I'm refocusing, and I'm going to do what I want to do.
I leave for my cruise on Wednesday, and I'm so excited to see my sister. I can't wait! At first I didn't even want to go on the cruise just because I don't like being away from my friends... that's so wrong... I guess I can use the vaca to do some soul searching and think about things. Does anyone know what's going down on New Years Eve? I have to work that night, but I think I'll be done before midnight hopefully... ugh so hungry...
I leave for my cruise on Wednesday, and I'm so excited to see my sister. I can't wait! At first I didn't even want to go on the cruise just because I don't like being away from my friends... that's so wrong... I guess I can use the vaca to do some soul searching and think about things. Does anyone know what's going down on New Years Eve? I have to work that night, but I think I'll be done before midnight hopefully... ugh so hungry...