Life, it sucks.
My first session was today. It was good to pour out all my feelings on things. It was also extremely difficult. I can't help but think in the back of my mind that she's judging me, even though she can't or doesn't matter if she does. I hate how I start crying over my dad...why can't I just be normal about it? I grieve so randomly, sometimes I wish I had a schedule.
Melanie is dying...I can't believe this... what the hell. She's really going - they're taking her off life support. She's my mom's friend, I don't know her well at all, yet it makes me want to cry. She and my mom were so close and she was so full of life... why does this kind of thing have to happen to nice people? Life doesn't make any sense, why does God let this kind of thing happen?
I'm feeling a little depressed... I don't know what to do about it. I'm sad but I can't let myself - I have things to do. I feel so...shitty. =/
Melanie is dying...I can't believe this... what the hell. She's really going - they're taking her off life support. She's my mom's friend, I don't know her well at all, yet it makes me want to cry. She and my mom were so close and she was so full of life... why does this kind of thing have to happen to nice people? Life doesn't make any sense, why does God let this kind of thing happen?
I'm feeling a little depressed... I don't know what to do about it. I'm sad but I can't let myself - I have things to do. I feel so...shitty. =/