its all in my head..i cant keep picturing you with her..it hurts so bad
so lets see the night started of kinda bad..me n cne got into a fight but were ok now..it was over something stupid so anyways we met up with ryan at the mall but before we saw ryan..i saw someone that was the one person i didnt need to see, the one person who if i saw would rip out my heart. why did i need to see him just to remember everything i ever felt for him? to remember all the pain that he put me through yet just to remember that he is so far yet so close? yea i saw barry, i saw him and i looked and i looked the other way because at that very moment everything that weve ever done or said flashed through my head and then i forgot about it for a lil while because we saw ryan and then i went into a store and bought a lip gloss then i went into the bathroom and i just started to cry because i couldnt even hold it in more and cne asked me if i wanted a hug because thats what i always ask her wen shes sad but a hug couldnt heal the pain i was feeling at that very moment and i just needed to cry and when i was done i felt so much betteri guess im not totally over him but what can i do? nothing. he told me i was his downfall so whatver so getting to the good part of the night..i met some really cool people like jewish mark spikey mike this other jewish kid krista and bobbert and they are so cool. they want us to go to fun n games and barry will be there but ill pass him like i dont even know him and he is just another person to the world and to me so anyways im going to go now..im bored ill write later <33