I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart.

[xbrokendreams2x]

yesterday :).. mmmhmmm. went to school. stayed after with ashley and dylannnn!.. i had to do a test.. but it was so easy.. well sorta i just kinda guessed.. haha. then i went outside and chatted with ashley, dylan and other people that were there!! and Andy kept seeing me and then he would go "SAAAARRRAAA!!!" and it made me happy cause i miss that boy :-(.. hmm bylan gave me some of his bracelets :-) hehe.. i gave him some of mine too!! he gave ashley one too.. that means so much to me already. its crazy.. hmm.. well i called adam at like 3ish i guess and i had him come.. he came but ashley didnt wanna leave.. i mean i didnt wanna leave dylan either!!!! but i figured adam would wanna go.. and he was hinting to it the WHOLE time.. so he went and slept in his car.. so yea then after like 30 min or more i went to his car woke him up and told ashley we HAD to go.. yea so got a nice long sqeezing huge from dylan!! hes soo awesome!.. and then we departed.. went to adams house.. made some food for him.. and then made some food for ashley.. tryed to draw something for ashley.. but yea i wasnt in the mood.. i wasnt upset but i have to be in a certain mood to draw sometimes hahaha! anyways then we left.. went to russell's to drop off steak for him and erika.. so ashley and i, stayed and drew on the top of adams car! muahaha! that was fun!! headed out of here.. went down to contempo.. got a drink.. ashley did homework i watch Law and Order! bitchezZz.. then ashley was hungry so i went across the street and got her some food.. haha came back and then lady that was working at contempo told me that i could get drink anymore cause i didnt ask her if she wanted anything from wendys haha but she was only kidding haha! yay! :-).. then i called trina.. no answer. phone rang. it was her. then she told me to come visit, cause she wasnt going out, so we did, for like 45 mins or so. it was nice to just talk to her in person for once.. but they all have change so much.. steph was there so was someother person i usta know i cant remember her name.. but things change. people change. and we have to deal. and thats what i have to start to come to terms with. but its hard for me to deal with change. but oh well. i missed her and i got to see her so im happy!~. hmm went back to contempo. and russell, erika, AND nicole was there! yay! i missed her so much! <3.. hehe.. ross showed up. yea. uhh sat watched t.v, talked, and shit~ hmm came home.. went on computer tryed doing paper nope didnt work then couldnt sleep so i went BACK on the computer sat there fucked around with my journal and such.. then bed. got up. showered. talked to mother. then came to school. and its first period class. oh i took robotussion however its spelt.. not to much.. just enough to make me a little off.. :-) mmhmm.. ok. uhh. tonight. my moms bring ashley and i, to the movies.. chillin there with dylan and possibly dan.. and uh yea. then adams getting us at 930ish and then contempo.. im giving dylan all my good skating boarding shit and a new board.. cause im nice like that.. hmm.. yea so im not going to ashley's halloween party anymore.. i told danielle to go.. cause she went last year so she should just go again this year.. yea. blah. im out.

The Used.. all random lyrics

To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts.
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter.
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart.
Love is not like anything.
Especially a fucking knife.

The Used- Lunacy Fringe

Wake up, my love
Never thought you’d make me, break me
Now I’m up from below such a brilliant star you are
And will your love keep burning baby
Burn a hole right through my eyes
Saw the short times feel like no time
I thought you ought to know

I’m so far gone now I’ve been running on empty
I’m so far gone now do you wanna take me on (do you wanna take me on)

Do
Do you
Do you know?
Do you know how long I’ve waited to look up from below
Just to find someone like you
And will your love light burn me baby
Burn a hole right through my heart
I think I might just trust you maybe but I’m not sure, I’m not sure I wanna know

I’m so far gone now I’ve been running on empty
I’m so far gone now do you wanna take me on
I’m so far gone now I’ve been running on empty
I’m so far gone now do you wanna take me on (do you wanna take me on)

I think you could make me girl, could make me and take my life
I know you could break me girl, take all of me
All of me yeah

Wake up
My love
Never thought you’d make me, break me
Now I’m up from below, such a brilliant star you are

I’m so far gone now I’ve been running on empty
I’m so far gone now, do you wanna take me on
I’m so far gone I’ve been running on empty
I’m so far gone now do you wanna take me on

~mmmhmm i love this song with all of me. <3 and them<33333and josh<333