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I used to rely on self-medication
I guess I still do that from time to time
But I'm getting better at fighting the future
"Someday you'll be fine..."
Yes, I'll be just fine...
so i have been telling myself that i'll be ok
and we're getting down to the single digit countdown
and i can't hold it together
i feel like i have to be so unemotional or else i get made fun of...actually just the boys make fun of me..a.ctually except sean, because i think he understands too
it just sucks so much
ryann virginia can you just come home from lbi so i can live with you until you have to leave me?
i couldn't sleep last night because my mind is just in so many different places
and how things are going to change so much
but then again what if they don't...
i can't even begin to think of what this year is gonna be like
i just keep thinking things can only go uphill, yet things have been seeming to prove me wrong
though i got to see ben last night which made me happy
jenn ben and i saw dukes of hazzard, it was funny
i was at the beach all week last week
and gregory could only stay for like, a day..well 3 nights but 2 of the days he had wrestling so it sucked
i got burnt
and probably gained a lot of weight from all the ice cream i ate
and i have cuts from boogie boarding and getting beaten into the sand
though greg and i tried to make a sandcastle
it utterly failed
it started to become an inappropriate sandcastle eventually...
i just needed to update becuase i had no one to talk to
actually
i was reading through old things of mine
and i foudn this poem from ben from "ben friend appreciate day"
and that made me feel better
maybe because he spelt "freind" wrong
but who knows
lynnie and ry are both away
this blows