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my mind is all over the place.
I feel as though I'm going to be ill.
Now, back to the original plan
of not giving a damn until school is
done and over with.
Let's go back to this-
living your life by a list
sort of thing.
because I havent accomplished
a thing. just feeling.
I sleep too much,
sometimes it's better
than being awake.
I never dream,
it's just dead sleep.
I like it.
Last night I had a dream
where all of my insecurities
were real, where things that
I expected were real, and I was right
at points where I'd only wished to be
wrong.
tonight I'm letting myself feel low.
but come tomorrow it's time to
change things up a bit.
You do you.
and trust that fate
will let the pieces fall
where they may.
it's not personal, I promise.
from now on, I need to be smart,
and view things in 3rd person.
no more attatchment,
no more feeling too much.
logic.
I'm feeling really alone again,
but it's a comfortable feeling.
a safety backfall.
Mood: Content.