three truths and a picture.

[xbrightest]

I'm tired of people asking me if i have any cute, single friends.
Staying in this house is incredibly lonely.
At least I bought three new dresses today.



I have this really odd feeling like everything is going wrong but life just feels right. there's this pressure in my eyes and it's like years of tears i never let go are trying to break free. i know it would be the greatest relief but, i don't like being weak and the only thing i like about crying is that my eyes look really pretty.

Some days I don't know if this is what i want but I know I don't want that either. How do you ever know? Everything always changes and somehow there's always a problem. No support, not enough money, too much time, no one to go with.

I don't like where I live and I honestly just want things to be the way they used to be. I miss summer feeling like summer. Everyone is so busy and we all have our own lives but I just want relationships, bike rides, beach days and sugar free popsicles. I want to feel like a human being that is living and breathing.

I don't feel good enough. For you. For me. For him. For Columbia. For this. For Him.
There, I said it.

Fuck.