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This following convo is not being posted to exploit this situation in any way. its for Jordan, sarah, kristin, margo and everyone else involved. I needed a place to post this where only a handfull of people would see it. Everybody read this and lets talk about this week. This happened today... Sunday about 6 days after her manic episode.
Heather Rowland
can i kick it at your house tonight? or would i be too much of a burden?
Brian Skiffington
where did you stay last night? I would have to ask everyone.
Heather Rowland
they released me from the hospital and now i am with my dad. ask away. ill be here.
I slept in my dads studio last night
Brian Skiffington
are you on meds or did they give you any kind of plan or help or just let you out?
Heather Rowland
they just let me out
Brian Skiffington
I am concerned that we made some progress and worried about you. I seriously want to help in anyway I can but i want you to be on board with me and take it seriously
I am amazed they just let you out. that seems like they didnt even care
and it makes me sad
how do you feel about the hospital thing?
Heather Rowland
you want me to go back and forth like everyone else
Brian Skiffington
no
Heather Rowland
yea!!
Brian Skiffington
i want you to be heather rowland
a fierce intelligent beautiful woman
not tryin to push you away.
just need to be real. both of us
Heather Rowland
what do you mean us like i have multi personalities now?!
im sorry i cherish your support really
just going through a hell of alot right now
Brian Skiffington
no. me and you
and your friends
i know you are
just dont run from it. confront it head on. you have all your friends to support you
Heather Rowland
its hard having pusher define who you are
pushers
Brian Skiffington
pusher?
oh like drugs and meds?
Heather Rowland
yea.
Brian Skiffington
i hate that shit
Heather Rowland
me too
Brian Skiffington
its hard to deal with when it makes you someone else.
i wont even take my allergy meds
Heather Rowland
good for you
Brian Skiffington
if i am ever pushing you away, or upsetting you, offending you, whatever... just tell me about it.
Heather Rowland
i dont like having my chemical makeup messed with
Brian Skiffington
yeah. what kinds of things trigger the bipolar stuff? is at random? i dont know much about it
i guess sarah leslie has a similar kind but its not the same type
como?
Heather Rowland
we have different types
memories do it mostly
Brian Skiffington
man
Heather Rowland
some traumatic things have happened to me
Brian Skiffington
i cant even imagine
Heather Rowland
its fine makes one stronger i like to pray
Brian Skiffington
have you considered an alternative to medicine. like finding a therapist. just someone to talk to about it and get it all out?
i am just glad you are ok.
Heather Rowland
thank you! i am considering it.
Brian Skiffington
I think if you are gonna try and do this outside of being on meds you have a lot of friends, family and people concerned for you and your daughter. I think reaching out to a therapist or having some kind of outlet for it would be a good reassurance to a lot of people. I would support you 100% in this
Heather Rowland
thank you thank you brian!
Brian Skiffington
when things settle down and you find a spot to live permanently with adele, if it ever gets to much and you need to get away and clear your head or whatever you need. all of your friends would seriously watch after adele, or hang with you, get out of town for a bit get out of the city. whatever it is
Brian Skiffington
just try and recognize it before it happens and we can make it work
Heather Rowland
i do have peace through it all
it more like i was willing to go through it.
i wanted to make sure the cps system was safe
and i was safe to be un medicated
Brian Skiffington
well
Heather Rowland
theres just a very fine order to things
Brian Skiffington
to all of us and everyone involved you scared us all
when you were in the hospital and full on under the spell you were saying some things that i want to write down in a letter for you
whatever happens, you have adele. the most precious human being in the universe
she is your rock
Heather Rowland
i know there are moments that when you are all scared i lose faith that i could maybe be doing somthing for a greater good... sounds cheeseball but sometimes its dark but regardless....
its real and im determined to have something great come out of it.
if nothing else im going through what my sister had to
its a sort of fastings if you will
a deep look inside
Brian Skiffington
well. thats cool
and probably good
how do you feel about where adele is?
could you have prepared for that a bit better?
ii just got the impression you were going through something tremendous but didnt know how to tell anyone about it
Heather Rowland
no i couldnt. my roommates at the other place asked me to leave. the owner was going through his own manic episode
had NOTHING to do with me but i got asked to leave and
all my friends were getting scared at the situation and refusing to take me in sooooo
Brian Skiffington
man
what a mess
you will get through it
you always do
Heather Rowland
i had to act out a scene and get cps to take care of her while I am homeless
Brian Skiffington
have you contacted your work and let them know whats going on?
Heather Rowland
i am looking for a new line of work
Brian Skiffington
but Beads are such a lucrative market!
Heather Rowland
i have contact info to work with the art rest orator of Tacoma
and working on design and photography
this is my creative time i guess
working on a film as well
i miss the hell out of my girl though!
Brian Skiffington
well i am glad to hear that
Heather Rowland
of course!
shes why i do what i do
Brian Skiffington
Monday you seemed unaffected by her abscence and told us you abandoned her
it was kinda intense
Heather Rowland
i don't think i used those words
she cant be homeless
Brian Skiffington
you werent saying it in the sense of... i did it on purpose
its like you realized in hindsight what you had done
Heather Rowland
well...
Brian Skiffington
and were just stating the facts
it was very non chalant
Heather Rowland
it WAS intentional
Brian Skiffington
you were very detached from the consequences
Heather Rowland
well.. i did what i had to when i got kicked out at 25
Brian Skiffington
25 years old?
Heather Rowland
grounded
Brian Skiffington
i am with you here. just tryin to understand it better and the internet is not the easiest way to do it
Heather Rowland
well if your cool with hangin out with me tonight you know how to find me.
Heather Rowland
can i kick it at your house tonight? or would i be too much of a burden?
Brian Skiffington
where did you stay last night? I would have to ask everyone.
Heather Rowland
they released me from the hospital and now i am with my dad. ask away. ill be here.
I slept in my dads studio last night
Brian Skiffington
are you on meds or did they give you any kind of plan or help or just let you out?
Heather Rowland
they just let me out
Brian Skiffington
I am concerned that we made some progress and worried about you. I seriously want to help in anyway I can but i want you to be on board with me and take it seriously
I am amazed they just let you out. that seems like they didnt even care
and it makes me sad
how do you feel about the hospital thing?
Heather Rowland
you want me to go back and forth like everyone else
Brian Skiffington
no
Heather Rowland
yea!!
Brian Skiffington
i want you to be heather rowland
a fierce intelligent beautiful woman
not tryin to push you away.
just need to be real. both of us
Heather Rowland
what do you mean us like i have multi personalities now?!
im sorry i cherish your support really
just going through a hell of alot right now
Brian Skiffington
no. me and you
and your friends
i know you are
just dont run from it. confront it head on. you have all your friends to support you
Heather Rowland
its hard having pusher define who you are
pushers
Brian Skiffington
pusher?
oh like drugs and meds?
Heather Rowland
yea.
Brian Skiffington
i hate that shit
Heather Rowland
me too
Brian Skiffington
its hard to deal with when it makes you someone else.
i wont even take my allergy meds
Heather Rowland
good for you
Brian Skiffington
if i am ever pushing you away, or upsetting you, offending you, whatever... just tell me about it.
Heather Rowland
i dont like having my chemical makeup messed with
Brian Skiffington
yeah. what kinds of things trigger the bipolar stuff? is at random? i dont know much about it
i guess sarah leslie has a similar kind but its not the same type
como?
Heather Rowland
we have different types
memories do it mostly
Brian Skiffington
man
Heather Rowland
some traumatic things have happened to me
Brian Skiffington
i cant even imagine
Heather Rowland
its fine makes one stronger i like to pray
Brian Skiffington
have you considered an alternative to medicine. like finding a therapist. just someone to talk to about it and get it all out?
i am just glad you are ok.
Heather Rowland
thank you! i am considering it.
Brian Skiffington
I think if you are gonna try and do this outside of being on meds you have a lot of friends, family and people concerned for you and your daughter. I think reaching out to a therapist or having some kind of outlet for it would be a good reassurance to a lot of people. I would support you 100% in this
Heather Rowland
thank you thank you brian!
Brian Skiffington
when things settle down and you find a spot to live permanently with adele, if it ever gets to much and you need to get away and clear your head or whatever you need. all of your friends would seriously watch after adele, or hang with you, get out of town for a bit get out of the city. whatever it is
Brian Skiffington
just try and recognize it before it happens and we can make it work
Heather Rowland
i do have peace through it all
it more like i was willing to go through it.
i wanted to make sure the cps system was safe
and i was safe to be un medicated
Brian Skiffington
well
Heather Rowland
theres just a very fine order to things
Brian Skiffington
to all of us and everyone involved you scared us all
when you were in the hospital and full on under the spell you were saying some things that i want to write down in a letter for you
whatever happens, you have adele. the most precious human being in the universe
she is your rock
Heather Rowland
i know there are moments that when you are all scared i lose faith that i could maybe be doing somthing for a greater good... sounds cheeseball but sometimes its dark but regardless....
its real and im determined to have something great come out of it.
if nothing else im going through what my sister had to
its a sort of fastings if you will
a deep look inside
Brian Skiffington
well. thats cool
and probably good
how do you feel about where adele is?
could you have prepared for that a bit better?
ii just got the impression you were going through something tremendous but didnt know how to tell anyone about it
Heather Rowland
no i couldnt. my roommates at the other place asked me to leave. the owner was going through his own manic episode
had NOTHING to do with me but i got asked to leave and
all my friends were getting scared at the situation and refusing to take me in sooooo
Brian Skiffington
man
what a mess
you will get through it
you always do
Heather Rowland
i had to act out a scene and get cps to take care of her while I am homeless
Brian Skiffington
have you contacted your work and let them know whats going on?
Heather Rowland
i am looking for a new line of work
Brian Skiffington
but Beads are such a lucrative market!
Heather Rowland
i have contact info to work with the art rest orator of Tacoma
and working on design and photography
this is my creative time i guess
working on a film as well
i miss the hell out of my girl though!
Brian Skiffington
well i am glad to hear that
Heather Rowland
of course!
shes why i do what i do
Brian Skiffington
Monday you seemed unaffected by her abscence and told us you abandoned her
it was kinda intense
Heather Rowland
i don't think i used those words
she cant be homeless
Brian Skiffington
you werent saying it in the sense of... i did it on purpose
its like you realized in hindsight what you had done
Heather Rowland
well...
Brian Skiffington
and were just stating the facts
it was very non chalant
Heather Rowland
it WAS intentional
Brian Skiffington
you were very detached from the consequences
Heather Rowland
well.. i did what i had to when i got kicked out at 25
Brian Skiffington
25 years old?
Heather Rowland
grounded
Brian Skiffington
i am with you here. just tryin to understand it better and the internet is not the easiest way to do it
Heather Rowland
well if your cool with hangin out with me tonight you know how to find me.