irritated
fuck... okay so when I found out that there was a pussycat dolls/ danity kane cocnert at the HP, I hella wanted to go and started looking for some tickets. I kept telling my mom that we need to buy them asap because they're going to sale out. she said i needed to find out if i could get off of work early first, and i told her yeah, i could cause linda wouldn't mind... but no... i had to be sure. so i asked the next day, and linda said yea, that wouldn't be a problem. so i come home, and when i asked if could get the tickets, she just came up with some lame excuse, or tried to change the subject. so today, i tried it again, and what a suprise... they're all sold out. okay... originally, i was trying to get tickets for the gwen stefani concert....and then they sold out of the good seats, but still had lawn seats available. and then i was like ohoh! PCD and DK! and now im just plum outta luck because of mom. Both concerts are ALL sold out. And I checked stubhub.com...and tickets are fucken expensive... and my mom was like tahts not right! her friend told her they were like $63! well mom, ur friend is stupid! It's like $190 EACH ticket. FUCK! i just get so irrtated with my mom cause she ALWAYS does this to me. She says oh yeah, she'll get me something, and then it never happens. And its not like i ask for anything anymore. I have to payfor my own gas, clothes,food, everything now. if i wanted to go on vacation to mexico with kyle and sarah, I had to pay for it. She wouldn't give it to me as a 'graduation present'.oh, but no... if i could get tickets for a concert, i could go to that and count that as my graduation present. what the fuck?! kyle got a laptop....okay, i got one for sweet 16, but it was fucken used! it doesnt do shit anymore! it cant even connect to wireless internet. i just find it kinda messed up. she did this to me too...at christmas time when i found that perfect purple guitar for $180... a fender squire with humbuckers??? thats a hella good deal for $180.,.,.,. and i told her the same thing. If we dont get it now, its going to be gone... i even said that i would pay her back when we got home she could help me out right then and there. But no... she wouldnt...not even if i could pay her back. and when i went back to get it with my own money? it was gone. im just so irritated with her! and then lately, my parents have been trying to talk me into going to sonoma state because its cheaper. they know i want to go to dominican.... but even though fafsa said we can only afford $13K, they're still freaking out that we're going to have to pay $42K. NO WE DONT! gosh! so basically, just because my dad is a state employee, we get a discount... thats great... but i just feel like i should be able to choose where i want to go to college...where i want to spend the next four years of my life. but anyways, they're trying to talk my into sonoma state.... me and kyle are so sick of being at home that we're thinking of leaving the state...going to iowa or something. i dont know. im just so fed up right now. and ms. tobias is making us print 15 friggin pages of poetic devices and figurative language. 15 f-in pages! Thats a lot of ink considering that half of every page is BLACK! god......FACK! stupid shit.