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[xbrendonx]

disappointment thats all i have in front of me.
im slowly coming to accept the fact that i wont ever
get married or have kids. people can tell me that i
need to get out and meet new people. why meet new people
when the old people just fucking let me down. why stay
positive when its ok to abuse women, when its ok to be a
shitbag. i dont fucking get it.

i like where i am at in life.
i like that i am almost done with school. i like my
job. im moving to my parents house. living with fucking
hippies can suck it. i read so many comics. it takes me away
makes me forget that i have one friend. i suppose having one
friend who isnt using you to make money is better than ten
friends who are fucking leeches without any heart.

moving to my parents house is just a staging for me. im either
moving far away, or buying a house in syracuse. not sure which
yet.

im a hermit. i do school, work, and come home and pet my cats.
id be a liar if i were to say that i werent lonely. im very
lonely.

i keep having dreams about allison. they are fucking weird.
i wake up thinking that they were real.

ive been weening myself off of the antidepressants.