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[xbreakmywingsx]

So.
I did it again.
&& this time it hurts.

I think I fucked up big time.
I always think that, and it just hurts now.
I can't leave something just physical,
and now i'm hurting.
I always get attached
and I hate it.

I want to just stay away.
Why can't I just not go around him?
I mean- fuck- I don't know what I mean.

I don't like getting attached because that means i'm happy with him.
And that will only get me hurt.
Maybe I want to be hurt
but he doesn't.

Josh&ryan kept referring to me as matt's girl.
whatever
i found it kinda funny
and i was about to punch josh in the face
XD

my brain hurts
and my heart hurts

samantha went to common grounds last night
with PUCKETT
and i got pissed
i'd never say anything to samantha's face
but for christ sake
she cheated on me with him
and he's fucking disgusting
like seriously.

i'm becoming attached to matt
i guess he only wants shit physical
i'm just gonna leave it alone for right now
like totally.
i'mgonna see how long it takes me to
write him a myspace message or post on something.
i need to break this before i get hurt.
i need to break this now.

<321
someone help.
I don't want to find myself changing for him
but it's already happening
I quit smoking
I mean
COMEON kayla
Why the hell would you want to do that?

i'm hurting myself
just to hurt him
because i'm suffering

he thinks i'm bulemic
it's kinda funny
i'll let him believe what ever he wants