march 30, 2004 - october 13, 2009
In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.
Probably the best quote I've seen lately. It helps so much to be able to write in here. However, it does not at all help to see all of the old posts about the last times we broke up. It's sad that I resort to this. It's been almost two weeks. Two weeks tuesday. I don't know how I'm surviving. I really couldn't do it without the help of my friends. Haven't even talked to him. Stalk his facebook like no other. Shit sucks. EVERYTHING i do reminds me of him. We were together for 5 and 1/2 years. We did everything! I have a story about everything and it sucks. Everywhere i drive, everywhere i go, everything i do. I don't understand how he's doing ok. I wish I could talk to him so much. Instead, I resort for the text messages that took me forever to think of what to say and yet I get no response. I drunk dialed him, from a blocked number this past weekend at 5am. I have problems. But it makes me feel so much better.
It is so hard to tell myself everything will be ok.. because it's not. I'm so lost without him and the only way to make myself feel better is to get drunkk all weekend, every weekend. It's so awkward with other boys. I can't do it. Please come back to me :(
Probably the best quote I've seen lately. It helps so much to be able to write in here. However, it does not at all help to see all of the old posts about the last times we broke up. It's sad that I resort to this. It's been almost two weeks. Two weeks tuesday. I don't know how I'm surviving. I really couldn't do it without the help of my friends. Haven't even talked to him. Stalk his facebook like no other. Shit sucks. EVERYTHING i do reminds me of him. We were together for 5 and 1/2 years. We did everything! I have a story about everything and it sucks. Everywhere i drive, everywhere i go, everything i do. I don't understand how he's doing ok. I wish I could talk to him so much. Instead, I resort for the text messages that took me forever to think of what to say and yet I get no response. I drunk dialed him, from a blocked number this past weekend at 5am. I have problems. But it makes me feel so much better.
It is so hard to tell myself everything will be ok.. because it's not. I'm so lost without him and the only way to make myself feel better is to get drunkk all weekend, every weekend. It's so awkward with other boys. I can't do it. Please come back to me :(