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why do people always make themselves out to be better then they really are? confidence is key but you might as well embrace your bad qualities too, because most people can usually see through it.
like me, for example. i am now owning up to all the unattractive things about me.
- i'm insecure.
- i say pretty nasty shit about people i don't like.
- i can be a hypocrite.
- i'm a very bad pessamist.
- i think about doing things then never do them.
- i can't comfortably talk about my problems.
- i lie to my therapist so my sessions will be shorter.
- i'm not racist but the way i talk is horrible.
- i don't understand things most people understand.
- i'm gullible to a fault.
i removed pushover from the list, because i feel that is going away somewhat. there just isn't anyone i feel like being mad at enough to confront them. but lately i've been thinking about the female jocks at the high school and how they used to piss me off so bad by saying stuff about me, and how if i heard anything else i was going to get all up in their business. so i think that's a good sign that i'm experiencing feistiness instead of shrinking awayness.
or maybe that's just something inside of me that thinks i'm not a pushover anymore and i really still am. whatever. nobody to yell at and that's how it should be.
like me, for example. i am now owning up to all the unattractive things about me.
- i'm insecure.
- i say pretty nasty shit about people i don't like.
- i can be a hypocrite.
- i'm a very bad pessamist.
- i think about doing things then never do them.
- i can't comfortably talk about my problems.
- i lie to my therapist so my sessions will be shorter.
- i'm not racist but the way i talk is horrible.
- i don't understand things most people understand.
- i'm gullible to a fault.
i removed pushover from the list, because i feel that is going away somewhat. there just isn't anyone i feel like being mad at enough to confront them. but lately i've been thinking about the female jocks at the high school and how they used to piss me off so bad by saying stuff about me, and how if i heard anything else i was going to get all up in their business. so i think that's a good sign that i'm experiencing feistiness instead of shrinking awayness.
or maybe that's just something inside of me that thinks i'm not a pushover anymore and i really still am. whatever. nobody to yell at and that's how it should be.