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so i'm finally finished with my homework and it's an amazing feeling. for once i'm not staying up until dawn finishing projects that are due in a few hours. i can actually go to bed at a decent hour and get sleep!
i was on the phone with someone today and i realized just how much i have matured... actually, two seperate conversations made me realize it.
i don't know if it was moving out of orlando that made me grow up so quickly, or if i'm just mature by nature.
OR, maybe it was both.
sometimes i long to be immature like i was in orlando. i was so free and not concerned with anyone but myself. now i have another person to think about.
sometimes i just really love sitting back and thinking about my life. i don't mean that in a vain way, i mean that in a way that it makes you realize that you are growing up and things do come with time and patience.
it's also very humbling to know that i'm able to sustain a relationship for almost 2 years now. believe me, if you asked me 3 years ago if i'd be able to sustain a relationship, or even be able to meet an amazing boy that wanted to be my boyfriend i would have laughed in your face. it makes me laugh and want to hide my face at the same time thinking of the way i was in florida. i was incredible. but not in a good way. i mean, yeah i'm sure i had my good times.. like i was probably a lot of fun to drink and party with, but other than that i was a pretty crappy person. all i wanted was attention from boys, which obviously led to the wrong kind of attention. i think about the boys i used to involved myself with allll the time and it's soooo funny. i can't believe the things i did, the times i drove drunk to meet boys, and the most insane things i would talk about online. grrr... how things and people change!
i always get nervous when i go to florida after a while. i know that i keep changing, almost on a daily basis and i know that a lot of people i'm going to see haven't changed much at all. or maybe they've changed a lot as well and it makes things awkward. sometimes even the people that i was closest to, i find it hard to hold a conversation. i guess everyone changes and in order to sustain friendship it's about adapting to the new person. it's easier to adjust to some people than others.
i really do cherish all the friendships i have in orlando. i know sometimes i can be really bitchy on here and say mean things about my friends, especially if i don't see them while i'm home... but it goes both ways and i've realized that. i need to stop pointing fingers at everyone else and start looking closer to home. i don't want to be the bitch.. i want to be the nice girl!
call me, and we'll go out for a drink. that goes to everyone. 407 927 0748
i was on the phone with someone today and i realized just how much i have matured... actually, two seperate conversations made me realize it.
i don't know if it was moving out of orlando that made me grow up so quickly, or if i'm just mature by nature.
OR, maybe it was both.
sometimes i long to be immature like i was in orlando. i was so free and not concerned with anyone but myself. now i have another person to think about.
sometimes i just really love sitting back and thinking about my life. i don't mean that in a vain way, i mean that in a way that it makes you realize that you are growing up and things do come with time and patience.
it's also very humbling to know that i'm able to sustain a relationship for almost 2 years now. believe me, if you asked me 3 years ago if i'd be able to sustain a relationship, or even be able to meet an amazing boy that wanted to be my boyfriend i would have laughed in your face. it makes me laugh and want to hide my face at the same time thinking of the way i was in florida. i was incredible. but not in a good way. i mean, yeah i'm sure i had my good times.. like i was probably a lot of fun to drink and party with, but other than that i was a pretty crappy person. all i wanted was attention from boys, which obviously led to the wrong kind of attention. i think about the boys i used to involved myself with allll the time and it's soooo funny. i can't believe the things i did, the times i drove drunk to meet boys, and the most insane things i would talk about online. grrr... how things and people change!
i always get nervous when i go to florida after a while. i know that i keep changing, almost on a daily basis and i know that a lot of people i'm going to see haven't changed much at all. or maybe they've changed a lot as well and it makes things awkward. sometimes even the people that i was closest to, i find it hard to hold a conversation. i guess everyone changes and in order to sustain friendship it's about adapting to the new person. it's easier to adjust to some people than others.
i really do cherish all the friendships i have in orlando. i know sometimes i can be really bitchy on here and say mean things about my friends, especially if i don't see them while i'm home... but it goes both ways and i've realized that. i need to stop pointing fingers at everyone else and start looking closer to home. i don't want to be the bitch.. i want to be the nice girl!
call me, and we'll go out for a drink. that goes to everyone. 407 927 0748