it's only cold when you sleep alone.

[xbravenewgirlx]

I recommend the album Nothing Feels Good by the Promise Ring to every human being with eardrums on the planet. That, and "The Alumni Interview" by David Levithan. Oh, and anything by Zoe Trope. Oh yeah, and anything Geoff Rickly ever touched, because that man is a complete genius. And the songs "Vindicated" and "Hey Girl", because I swear

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[sweetvlady]

I have this huge window in my room, and it's a perfect angle to my bed, so when I lie down, I can see everything. I love it. My room is very small, so when it snows, it reflects, and my entire room feels completely white and new and clean and fresh and cold. It's like I'm the first person in the whole world who sees that snowfall. I love it.
thank you for writing this because i loved reading it. my walls are swimming in magazine cut-outs and lyrics and telus pictures and paintings that i paint.

i'm reading a book right now and there's a part that i think you'll like and understand, so i'm typing it out.

S said: Well, do you ever feel like English is a foreign language sometimes? Like you can say all the words inside your head perfectly but when they come out of your mouth it's like you've never learned them at all? Like they're sounds you never learned to pronounce?
Then my mouth opened up + words rushed out in bunches:

Like they're alive
in my head
but they aren't
when they come out.

[xbravenewgirlx]

Wow, thank you.
I could swear I've heard that before, or something like it, it really does sound familiar, and it so fittingly describes how I feel most of the time. I can think something, and in my head, I can explain my feelings and thoughts and opinions, I can ask for what I want and demand what I need from the world, I could spill my guts to anyone. And I open my mouth, it's like no one can hear what I'm saying. Or maybe they can hear, but they don't listen. My words are sloppy, jumbled together, a messy string of nonsense, because I want things so badly and I hold them inside for so long that when they finally escape, it's like no one in this world is even interested, and even if they were, my words wouldn't be enough for them. For anyone. It just strikes me as so strange that the things I so love putting down on paper are the things that trip me up as soon as I part my lips.
By the way, darling, what book is that? Because I'd love to read it. You have excellent taste.

[sweetvlady]

yeah, sometimes i spend so much time piecing my words together in my head and putting them in an order that people will understand. too much time.

that book is called 3 NBs of Julian Drew by James M. Deem. i bought it at this little book store for $0.99 because the description looked really good. i haven't reached the end yet, but it seems so perks to me. i think you should read it <333 it's about an abused 15/16-year-old boy who's really quiet and always measures his words. i'm going to recommend it to the perks community once i reach the end. if it's good enough.

p.s. i'm glad we added each other <3

[xbravenewgirlx]

thank you . . . if you found it in kind of an out-of-the-way place, do you think i'd be able to find it at a barnes + noble? it does sound really similar to perks, and people in the community are always asking anyone to recommend new novels.
p.s. i am very glad myself. =)
<3<3<3

[sweetvlady]

i think it's definitely worth a look. but if you don't find it, i can send the book to you through the mail. and when you're done reading it, you can just send it back to me <333 i was thinking about that yesterday when i was reading it.

[xbravenewgirlx]

i'm venturing out to my local b + n tomorrow, dear, and i shall peruse the fiction and literature section. i hope i find it, but if i can't, i would love to take you up on the offer. merci beaucoup, ma belle.
<333