i was born in omaha
it is difficult to leave a church that i had gotten so use to the way they did things. it is difficult to come and go to a church of christ that is so different. that is why it is so refreshing to go to sanctuary every thursday night. those instruments do something. i dont know if it makes me concentrate more or what, but it seems like i can hear him to speak to me alot better. he makes me smile
one of the reasons that i am happy here is these new friends. for once someone actually asks me if i did my quiet time because he is concerned about my spiritual life. why did that not happen back home for all of those years? was it because i was forced to be with those people and they really didnt care about me personally? i dont believe it was it..but it kind of makes me sad that it never happened.
two nights ago God told me that i am not giving everything that i have to him. he didnt tell me what it was, though. even though that is very frusterating, i think that is one of the reasons that it i love being in a relationship with him. if God just told me everything to do, there wouldnt be much of a relationship. instead, he tells me only part of it. i think he does this on purpose to get us closer to him. in order to get closer, we have to spend more of our time, and thus sacrifice something that we use to do regularly. when we make this sacrifice God sees that we are willing and want to be active in his will. i really wish it would be easier, but it isnt. whoever said that being a christian was easy must have never picked up their bible.
i am now an active addict to the o.c. who would have thought that a teenage drama could be so addicting. who would have thought that a single kiss could get everyone in the room to stand up and dance around the room (why the heck did it take ryan 10 episodes). we stayed up for a while one night and watched a few episodes. i have to say that it is going to be so hard once i get caught up to wait an entire week between them. i never thought that teenage life could be so interesting. oh wait, im not filthy rich living in orange county making out with girls like mischa barton.
last night we went to cd warehouse and it proved very successful. i found elliott's false cathedrals and the gloria record's start here. let me say that i am very happy right now. both those cds prove to be very enjoying and my ipod is going to be so full its insane.
this week in school is going to be dubbed hell week:
monday: exam in western civilization
tuesday: exam in biology + presentation in english
wednesday: exam in psychology
thursday: day of rest
friday: turn in 1000 word paper
i think im starting to feel a little overwhelmed, but hey this is college and i knew it would be hard since the 3rd grade. at least i was prepared.
watching the o.c. and seeing so many couples on campus is kind of disheartening. girls around here dont really go for the short emo kids. girls around here go for the surfer abercrombie good looking guys. unfortunately for myself, i dont fall in the second category. this isnt an issue with patience. i could wait for a very long time, as long as i just knew. ive been praying that there will at least be someone for me in the future. as long as i had that little hope and knowledge that i will be with someone forever, i could wait forever. i wish God would tell me, but hey, he isnt God for nothing.
cool hand luke on thursday, and dashboard and something corporate on next sunday. i cannot tell you how much stress will be relieved once this week is over. if you could lift my name up on any day i would actually very much appreciate it.
one of the reasons that i am happy here is these new friends. for once someone actually asks me if i did my quiet time because he is concerned about my spiritual life. why did that not happen back home for all of those years? was it because i was forced to be with those people and they really didnt care about me personally? i dont believe it was it..but it kind of makes me sad that it never happened.
two nights ago God told me that i am not giving everything that i have to him. he didnt tell me what it was, though. even though that is very frusterating, i think that is one of the reasons that it i love being in a relationship with him. if God just told me everything to do, there wouldnt be much of a relationship. instead, he tells me only part of it. i think he does this on purpose to get us closer to him. in order to get closer, we have to spend more of our time, and thus sacrifice something that we use to do regularly. when we make this sacrifice God sees that we are willing and want to be active in his will. i really wish it would be easier, but it isnt. whoever said that being a christian was easy must have never picked up their bible.
i am now an active addict to the o.c. who would have thought that a teenage drama could be so addicting. who would have thought that a single kiss could get everyone in the room to stand up and dance around the room (why the heck did it take ryan 10 episodes). we stayed up for a while one night and watched a few episodes. i have to say that it is going to be so hard once i get caught up to wait an entire week between them. i never thought that teenage life could be so interesting. oh wait, im not filthy rich living in orange county making out with girls like mischa barton.
last night we went to cd warehouse and it proved very successful. i found elliott's false cathedrals and the gloria record's start here. let me say that i am very happy right now. both those cds prove to be very enjoying and my ipod is going to be so full its insane.
this week in school is going to be dubbed hell week:
monday: exam in western civilization
tuesday: exam in biology + presentation in english
wednesday: exam in psychology
thursday: day of rest
friday: turn in 1000 word paper
i think im starting to feel a little overwhelmed, but hey this is college and i knew it would be hard since the 3rd grade. at least i was prepared.
watching the o.c. and seeing so many couples on campus is kind of disheartening. girls around here dont really go for the short emo kids. girls around here go for the surfer abercrombie good looking guys. unfortunately for myself, i dont fall in the second category. this isnt an issue with patience. i could wait for a very long time, as long as i just knew. ive been praying that there will at least be someone for me in the future. as long as i had that little hope and knowledge that i will be with someone forever, i could wait forever. i wish God would tell me, but hey, he isnt God for nothing.
cool hand luke on thursday, and dashboard and something corporate on next sunday. i cannot tell you how much stress will be relieved once this week is over. if you could lift my name up on any day i would actually very much appreciate it.