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Dear journal,
Today, was sucky.Last period i got some news that mad me pretty mad to say the least, but after school i went straight to work and had a realization from a jewel song....as corny and retarded as that sounds, its true. I got my shit together for college and high school is ending, i have amazing friends who id kill for, my relationship with my sisters, brother, and mother has improved..alot, im surrounded by people that truly make me happy, even if it dosent seem that way sometimes. My friends know me and know that NOTHING makes my blood boil like it dose when someone hurts them, and today my blood definatly boiled..alot, but i had time at work to cool off, and i realized that i dont care about what anyone else has to say. I dont care if you think im an alcoholic, fat, ugly, bitch...I'm worried about me and the desions im making right now and if their the right ones or not, i have good friends and family, and im not sitting on my ass complaining how hard everything is, im trying to make something of myself, and you dont know me...and will never know me. Everyone stuggles and everyone has problems,but sitting around and causing trouble becuz of them is a waste of time. Maybe you dont have potential, and will never have potential but i know i have potential and im not going to sit here and take shots at anyone, as much as i dislike/am disgusted with them. So i may be ugly, fat, or w/e else you said i was but one thing i know is that im not going to waste my life worrying about what you have to say, bcuz you dont matter. In reality, only kindness matters and im trying to change things about myself, my temper, and over-dramatization of things, bcuz i know i have flaws and no one is perfect.So good luck to you, i hope you dont spend the rest of your life trying to hurt the people that love/loved you.
To the rymers, i love you, and cant thank you enough for all the help, and toleration.
Im turning 18 this friday and i cant wait to see everyone...Xspecially my Tessa Rafs and Dev!
If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all OK
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
peace guys<3
Today, was sucky.Last period i got some news that mad me pretty mad to say the least, but after school i went straight to work and had a realization from a jewel song....as corny and retarded as that sounds, its true. I got my shit together for college and high school is ending, i have amazing friends who id kill for, my relationship with my sisters, brother, and mother has improved..alot, im surrounded by people that truly make me happy, even if it dosent seem that way sometimes. My friends know me and know that NOTHING makes my blood boil like it dose when someone hurts them, and today my blood definatly boiled..alot, but i had time at work to cool off, and i realized that i dont care about what anyone else has to say. I dont care if you think im an alcoholic, fat, ugly, bitch...I'm worried about me and the desions im making right now and if their the right ones or not, i have good friends and family, and im not sitting on my ass complaining how hard everything is, im trying to make something of myself, and you dont know me...and will never know me. Everyone stuggles and everyone has problems,but sitting around and causing trouble becuz of them is a waste of time. Maybe you dont have potential, and will never have potential but i know i have potential and im not going to sit here and take shots at anyone, as much as i dislike/am disgusted with them. So i may be ugly, fat, or w/e else you said i was but one thing i know is that im not going to waste my life worrying about what you have to say, bcuz you dont matter. In reality, only kindness matters and im trying to change things about myself, my temper, and over-dramatization of things, bcuz i know i have flaws and no one is perfect.So good luck to you, i hope you dont spend the rest of your life trying to hurt the people that love/loved you.
To the rymers, i love you, and cant thank you enough for all the help, and toleration.
Im turning 18 this friday and i cant wait to see everyone...Xspecially my Tessa Rafs and Dev!
If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all OK
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
peace guys<3