Life the great balancing act
I find myself torn between comfort and pushing myself.
Sometimes I feel like I push too hard. Sometimes I feel like I don't push enough.
THen when I try balance it all out, it feels like there is somethign throwing off the equation, or ill be mad im not doing one more than the other.
Sometimes I feel like the answers are right in front of me. Case in point (and this is real dumb) but I had to put through my employees timecard (I mean its money for me) and I felt like I was procrastinating. Why would I do that? Sometimes we do things that don't make sense. I guess what we can do is be conscious of it and try to work with it.
The pillars of self esteem says to challenge yourself and live up to the challenge, but also forgive yourself.
The only other real obsticle i've experienced lately is something I can look back for years on here and see that ive been experiencing the same thing my whole life. Its just feeling accepted. Friends, Family, Dating, Music.
One thing I need to remember is evolutionary where this all stems from (fear of being rejected by the tribe). There were serious consequences back in the day, but now a days were just left with the emotional hurt from it. I'm doing my best when I have the focus on myself and what i'm doing and feeling good about myself. One of my favorite examples is setting a new pr on bench press, its someting that you give to yourself. Its just easier said than done.
There are days where my family wont write back to me, my in person friends literally almost never do, I can get girls phone numbers and then they ignore it. Its hard not to take that stuff to heart. Planning on getting more therapy to help though. For now just gotta focus on me, and what i need to do to build my life as much as I can without the involvement from others, that should naturally follow though.
Sometimes I feel like I push too hard. Sometimes I feel like I don't push enough.
THen when I try balance it all out, it feels like there is somethign throwing off the equation, or ill be mad im not doing one more than the other.
Sometimes I feel like the answers are right in front of me. Case in point (and this is real dumb) but I had to put through my employees timecard (I mean its money for me) and I felt like I was procrastinating. Why would I do that? Sometimes we do things that don't make sense. I guess what we can do is be conscious of it and try to work with it.
The pillars of self esteem says to challenge yourself and live up to the challenge, but also forgive yourself.
The only other real obsticle i've experienced lately is something I can look back for years on here and see that ive been experiencing the same thing my whole life. Its just feeling accepted. Friends, Family, Dating, Music.
One thing I need to remember is evolutionary where this all stems from (fear of being rejected by the tribe). There were serious consequences back in the day, but now a days were just left with the emotional hurt from it. I'm doing my best when I have the focus on myself and what i'm doing and feeling good about myself. One of my favorite examples is setting a new pr on bench press, its someting that you give to yourself. Its just easier said than done.
There are days where my family wont write back to me, my in person friends literally almost never do, I can get girls phone numbers and then they ignore it. Its hard not to take that stuff to heart. Planning on getting more therapy to help though. For now just gotta focus on me, and what i need to do to build my life as much as I can without the involvement from others, that should naturally follow though.