Baby before it's too late, what about now?
So I'm gonna revive this every once in a while, like I always do.
Yeah smile and laugh at it, some things never change.
So my summer has been really good, despite the fact that practically nobody calls me anymore.
I think I've hung out with my group like once or twice since school ended.
I guess I'm not too shocked about it, because it was bound to happen at some point.
It's just disappointing I guess.
But who knows, maybe things will get better.
As usual, just keeping my hopes up.
On a lighter note, I've never been happier in... well, only God knows.
I guess that's ironic, considering what I just said before. lol
But honestly, to whoever happens to read this, life is SO good.
I can't even begin to tell you how surprised I am with what happened between me and Chris...
And not only surprised, but thankful.
BEYOND BELIEF.
He's the one person who has never given me reason for doubt.
No matter what the situation, he has ALWAYS been there.
I swear our minds were cloned at birth... =]
But no, seriously... I've told him, even if this doesn't end up working out
and we decide to just not date anymore,
I told him that we'd have to grow up and get over it fast because I'm gonna be needing him.
lol Like I need him, whether we're just friends or anything more.
I don't wanna make it sound like a stupid girly crush kinda thing, because it's not.
It seriously feels like we've been this close like all our lives.
I just care about him as a person.
Falling in this hopeless path of wanting more than 'just friends' is only a bonus.
But I don't feel sad anymore.
And that's what counts.
Nobody has ever cared for me more than this, and that's a fact.
It's just a secure feeling, I don't know how else to describe it.
I think from being best friends for so long... it just sorta built up the trust.
And we both know more about each other than even we think.
I don't know how else to describe it... lol but I really want to!
It's like, I've never felt so... worryfree? I guess?
I'm not worried about getting hurt.
And I suppose that's because he's proven to me when we were friends
that he's not going anywhere.
And believe me, I wasn't always the best sort of friend to him...
and somehow he forgave me.
Even for certain things I did that I wish more than anything that I could take back...
And trust me, it took a lot of balls to forgive me for that.
Anyways, point being, whether we end up together a long time or we end up just friends,
he needs to stick around. =] lol
Kinda sucks for the getting-over-it process but too freakin bad. lmao
But yeah...that's the update on that.
STAG ISLAND PARTY TOMORROWWWW...at our cottage.
I'm allowed to bring people...so ask for details! =]
what about now?
what about today?
what if you're making me
all that i was meant to be?
what if our love
never went away?
what if it's lost behind
things we could never find?
baby before it's too late...
what about now? ♥
Yeah smile and laugh at it, some things never change.
So my summer has been really good, despite the fact that practically nobody calls me anymore.
I think I've hung out with my group like once or twice since school ended.
I guess I'm not too shocked about it, because it was bound to happen at some point.
It's just disappointing I guess.
But who knows, maybe things will get better.
As usual, just keeping my hopes up.
On a lighter note, I've never been happier in... well, only God knows.
I guess that's ironic, considering what I just said before. lol
But honestly, to whoever happens to read this, life is SO good.
I can't even begin to tell you how surprised I am with what happened between me and Chris...
And not only surprised, but thankful.
BEYOND BELIEF.
He's the one person who has never given me reason for doubt.
No matter what the situation, he has ALWAYS been there.
I swear our minds were cloned at birth... =]
But no, seriously... I've told him, even if this doesn't end up working out
and we decide to just not date anymore,
I told him that we'd have to grow up and get over it fast because I'm gonna be needing him.
lol Like I need him, whether we're just friends or anything more.
I don't wanna make it sound like a stupid girly crush kinda thing, because it's not.
It seriously feels like we've been this close like all our lives.
I just care about him as a person.
Falling in this hopeless path of wanting more than 'just friends' is only a bonus.
But I don't feel sad anymore.
And that's what counts.
Nobody has ever cared for me more than this, and that's a fact.
It's just a secure feeling, I don't know how else to describe it.
I think from being best friends for so long... it just sorta built up the trust.
And we both know more about each other than even we think.
I don't know how else to describe it... lol but I really want to!
It's like, I've never felt so... worryfree? I guess?
I'm not worried about getting hurt.
And I suppose that's because he's proven to me when we were friends
that he's not going anywhere.
And believe me, I wasn't always the best sort of friend to him...
and somehow he forgave me.
Even for certain things I did that I wish more than anything that I could take back...
And trust me, it took a lot of balls to forgive me for that.
Anyways, point being, whether we end up together a long time or we end up just friends,
he needs to stick around. =] lol
Kinda sucks for the getting-over-it process but too freakin bad. lmao
But yeah...that's the update on that.
STAG ISLAND PARTY TOMORROWWWW...at our cottage.
I'm allowed to bring people...so ask for details! =]
what about now?
what about today?
what if you're making me
all that i was meant to be?
what if our love
never went away?
what if it's lost behind
things we could never find?
baby before it's too late...
what about now? ♥