I need him...now!!!
I'm so sad :( Today I went with Alex to the airport. We got there around 7:00pm and he was to board the plane at 7:40pm. I thought everything was good. We had a good dinner earlier. He seemed kind of excited to go and I was too. I didn't feel sad at all. But when the time came when he had to say goodbye...he hugged his brother, then his mom and when he faced me he had tears running down his cheeks and at that moment I felt something telling me that these 18 days are going to be harder than I thought. Seeing someone everyday for almost 4 months and then not seeing them for 18 days straight is really going to be hard. I'm so in love with him and I want everyone to know that I really do have the best. No one can be more perfect for me and no one has his heart. The way he treats me is beyond any high school relationship crap. I hate it when people say that it's just a high school thing. It's not!! I love him more than I could express in words and when people bring me down by saying that this isn't going to last. They're full of shit and you know who you are. Because it is. I believe in us. And because he's over 1,000 miles away won't change that. I trust him. I know he loves me. When we reached the top of the stairs, he looked back at me and I knew that he didn't want to go anymore. I wish he didn't. I can't make it through 18 days. :'( So please if anyone can keep me distracted in these 18 days I would love you forever. I'm counting down the days...