i can't wait till january

[xboulderhxcx]

two songs that pretty much sum up my feelings about life

the classic struggle of good and evil
has brought me to my knees
my mind is so filled with hate
one hundred demons possessing me
your kind never inspired me
you never offered your hand
just told me who i should be
but you don't know who i am
you say i dwell on the negative
well it's a part of my life
until you've tasted how i live
keep your fucking advice to yourself
all that time you wasted
preaching to the converted
a lifetime of hard luck
still can't make me give up
time has conquered youth
but the angers still inside
it doesn't come from hate
it's from a sense of pride

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i'm killing myself slowly
way too fucking slow
you never see my weakness
i never let it show
buried so deep inside me
i can't remember where
on my way straight to hell
and i'll wait for you there
where can i find the answers
i've looked everywhere
drugs, religion, sin and penance
i've tried them all they're not the cure
i've been beaten down by life
but i'me still fighting back
i want to die with dignity
keep your tears i'm on track
destined to go nowhere
determined to get there first
where can i find the answers
i've looked everywhere
drugs, religion, sin and penace
i've tried them all they're not the cure