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[xbonzi]

i feel gross lately and i'm not doing anyhitgn about it. when i'm bored i eat. and i stopped excersizing again. woohoo what like 2 weeks of good workouts and now nothing. i feel fat i want my abs back i want to be sore and have muscle. but i'm not motivated to do anything. it really sucks. the computer is slowly becoming my enemy and so is sleep. i sleep so i feel comfortable and i use the comp. when i'm bored. i need to workout to feel better. i want my car. i want to go to jacksonville, or home. theres alot of things going on here that keep me busy and today i had nothing to do i did hw so thats a plus but i miss cheereading i miss my friends i miss my mom i miss jared. last night i was in such a good mood and right now i feel so out of the loop and confused. i dont even know what to say.
w/e i'm out.
theres a game tom. i'm deifnately goign ot it wiht my shirt that i made hopefully i'll get a tan cuz we're going SUPER early. and its in the middle of the day. hopefully i'll be back ot normal by tom. now i understand y i was always so busy in h.s. ...

ok i'm out i should excersize rihg tnow but i'm not going to i have a knot in my stomach.
goodnight
-christie