"you brought pudding to college?!?!?!"
hey guys i just woke up like 15 min. ago but i need to clear my head so here it goes. last night at work was great! i got to 'glow' (run a glow cart) on my own and even tho it was a slow night i ended up being the only 1 who was even with money by the end of iteveryone else had like $2 or $4 short but yea it was so cool i love glowing. also, while i was out in germany with my cart a guy walked up to me and i was just like hey how are you tonight and then he mentioned me being here for summer again and if i remebered him...it was matt!!!!! none of ukno him u may have heard me say hi\s name last year but w/e. hes this college program kid form last year and hes back this year only he's graduated and now hes an intern manager. i was so overly excited to see him i missed him me and him would have to open in the mornings all the time and would throw money or talk in french it was hilarious. and hes working in my store tonight and glowing tom. :) i was like omg how did u find me? and hes like yea i saw ur name was on the schedule again and w/e but u havent been working any of the days that i have been. so he found me on glow and gave me liek the biggest hug. :-D
man i really dont kno what to think i was up til like 2:30 thinking constantly about this one thing. it seemed so close and liek it would happen and then he tells me this?!?! i kno i may b over thinking everything or i may just have finally snapped into the right train of thought about alkl this for once. would it b right or would both of us change and not for the better? how can she think i'd b liek that and tell her son straight out and he didnt even say hey ya kno its still might happen? will he listen to them liek what are you thinking right now? u say nope never ever and its joking but are u actually just hiding the truth of it? i got my hopes set really high and now i think the fall is just around the corner....
last nights htoughts and questions ended up making me turn into a 'thinker' and how its great now what could b better anyhting more could make it worse but this is all jsut a tease then just the end of the road and i dont want that but i dont kno what i want anymore. i want to be together and nothign to change but the way i see us now is how we should b if we date so what happens whne we date will anyhitng change and i really cant see it chanign into somehitng good. i can see the prob;lems now i think about the situations. i hate hitnking...and this is why...i hate seeing reality.
well i'm off this venting really didnt help much but w/e bye guys i work tonihgt form 6-midnight with matt :) and then again tom. and wed.
-christie mistie
p.s. i really need to see him again...i love you
p.p.s. for some reason this time doesnt feel as long as the 1st 10 days i was up here and this is effin 3 weeks...that nakes no sense lol but its still a long time cuzi miss ppl especailly adrienne and you.
man i really dont kno what to think i was up til like 2:30 thinking constantly about this one thing. it seemed so close and liek it would happen and then he tells me this?!?! i kno i may b over thinking everything or i may just have finally snapped into the right train of thought about alkl this for once. would it b right or would both of us change and not for the better? how can she think i'd b liek that and tell her son straight out and he didnt even say hey ya kno its still might happen? will he listen to them liek what are you thinking right now? u say nope never ever and its joking but are u actually just hiding the truth of it? i got my hopes set really high and now i think the fall is just around the corner....
last nights htoughts and questions ended up making me turn into a 'thinker' and how its great now what could b better anyhting more could make it worse but this is all jsut a tease then just the end of the road and i dont want that but i dont kno what i want anymore. i want to be together and nothign to change but the way i see us now is how we should b if we date so what happens whne we date will anyhitng change and i really cant see it chanign into somehitng good. i can see the prob;lems now i think about the situations. i hate hitnking...and this is why...i hate seeing reality.
well i'm off this venting really didnt help much but w/e bye guys i work tonihgt form 6-midnight with matt :) and then again tom. and wed.
-christie mistie
p.s. i really need to see him again...i love you
p.p.s. for some reason this time doesnt feel as long as the 1st 10 days i was up here and this is effin 3 weeks...that nakes no sense lol but its still a long time cuzi miss ppl especailly adrienne and you.