Wearin Down
I've been tired as shit the past few days and haven't been able to get a real good nights sleep for some reason. Tuesday night, I went to bed around 11:30pm (early as shit for me), and woke up at 8:45am (already 15 min late for work) and I was still tired, I have no clue why. I even took an hour nap during lunch and still couldn't get my energy up. After work, I went to Kat's place to chill, I got there at around 8ish n we watched some Stargate SG-1 episodes, the movie Marley and Me (absolutely great movie, but really sad at the end) and 10 Things I Hate About You (good movie, even for somewhat of a chick flick). I ended up sleepin at around 4am.
Thursday, I went to work tired as hell again and barely made it through the day. If it wasn't for my friends at work, I would have definitely fallen asleep. They all rock. I got home at around 6:15, took a 5 hour energy shot and went to my hockey game. It was a really shitty game cause our defense wasn't anywhere where they should ahve been the entire game, and we ended up losing 7-4. On the bright side tho, I scored a goal and it's only the 2nd game that weve lost so far, so were tied for first place with the record 6-2. After the game, I went to the hookah bar with Roszko and Ryan and chilled there for about an hour. On my way home (bout 9:50ish), Kat texted me askin if I wanted to come over for a lil while. I told her that I didn't know cause I was extremely exhausted and would probably pass out as soon as I got there. She said ok and told me to text her if I couldn't sleep. I got home and took a shower and went right to bed. I ended up phasing out at about 11, then Kat texted me at 11:30 which woke me back up and asked if I was sleeping. I said no, and she asked if I wanted to come over and that she didn't mind if I passed out when I got there. I said sure and ended up goin over there. I did end up falling asleep almost as soon as I got there, but for some reason, I kept waking up every hour or so, I don't know why. She was watchin some tv shows on her laptop while I was sleeping, which woke me up once or twice, but I do remember havin some crazy ass dreams that woke me up the majority of the time. I still have conflicting feelings while i'm around her, but it's not exactly how it sounds though. I still feel the same way I have before, but the other feeling I have is (slightly) depressed/anxious because of the fact that she's still with her b/f (even though she says its going to end real soon, its just knowing that I can't do anything at all and feeling as strongly as I do for her). I've gotten very good at hiding the fact that I'm feeling shitty apparently, cause everyone I know thinks the typical "Happy-go-Lucky" version of me is back again which is fine with me because I really don't like it when people worry about me. As much as I feel kinda crappy about the situation, I still want to hang out with her because I really enjoy her compnay and always want to see her, plus I remember what I wrote about hope (the writing I got on my new tattoo, which I'll post up in this entry) which ehlps significantly... After all, she was my inspiration for it.
If you can't read the writing (which it's probably too small in the picture to do), it says on the left side "Hope Guides Us. It is the single element that allows us to get through the worst of situations." The right side says "Without Hope, We are blind to the fact that better days will come. It is in the human spirit to persist."
Today, as you can guess im still tired as hell. I'm just glad that I have a half day and I leave work at 1pm, so I just have a couple hours left now. I think that as soon as I get home, I'm gonna take a nap for a couple of hours and then play some World of Warcraft til I find out what's goin on for tonight.
One last thing, I'm goin skydiving on September 26th :)
Lata
Thursday, I went to work tired as hell again and barely made it through the day. If it wasn't for my friends at work, I would have definitely fallen asleep. They all rock. I got home at around 6:15, took a 5 hour energy shot and went to my hockey game. It was a really shitty game cause our defense wasn't anywhere where they should ahve been the entire game, and we ended up losing 7-4. On the bright side tho, I scored a goal and it's only the 2nd game that weve lost so far, so were tied for first place with the record 6-2. After the game, I went to the hookah bar with Roszko and Ryan and chilled there for about an hour. On my way home (bout 9:50ish), Kat texted me askin if I wanted to come over for a lil while. I told her that I didn't know cause I was extremely exhausted and would probably pass out as soon as I got there. She said ok and told me to text her if I couldn't sleep. I got home and took a shower and went right to bed. I ended up phasing out at about 11, then Kat texted me at 11:30 which woke me back up and asked if I was sleeping. I said no, and she asked if I wanted to come over and that she didn't mind if I passed out when I got there. I said sure and ended up goin over there. I did end up falling asleep almost as soon as I got there, but for some reason, I kept waking up every hour or so, I don't know why. She was watchin some tv shows on her laptop while I was sleeping, which woke me up once or twice, but I do remember havin some crazy ass dreams that woke me up the majority of the time. I still have conflicting feelings while i'm around her, but it's not exactly how it sounds though. I still feel the same way I have before, but the other feeling I have is (slightly) depressed/anxious because of the fact that she's still with her b/f (even though she says its going to end real soon, its just knowing that I can't do anything at all and feeling as strongly as I do for her). I've gotten very good at hiding the fact that I'm feeling shitty apparently, cause everyone I know thinks the typical "Happy-go-Lucky" version of me is back again which is fine with me because I really don't like it when people worry about me. As much as I feel kinda crappy about the situation, I still want to hang out with her because I really enjoy her compnay and always want to see her, plus I remember what I wrote about hope (the writing I got on my new tattoo, which I'll post up in this entry) which ehlps significantly... After all, she was my inspiration for it.
If you can't read the writing (which it's probably too small in the picture to do), it says on the left side "Hope Guides Us. It is the single element that allows us to get through the worst of situations." The right side says "Without Hope, We are blind to the fact that better days will come. It is in the human spirit to persist."
Today, as you can guess im still tired as hell. I'm just glad that I have a half day and I leave work at 1pm, so I just have a couple hours left now. I think that as soon as I get home, I'm gonna take a nap for a couple of hours and then play some World of Warcraft til I find out what's goin on for tonight.
One last thing, I'm goin skydiving on September 26th :)
Lata