boredom has come across my veins

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I...

I am not: dead yet.
I love: spending time with my boyfriend
I hate: today and yesterday
I fear: my future
I hope: things get better soon
I hear: silence
I crave: a nice
I regret: moving to phoenix
I cry: too much
I care: about my boyfriend and best friend.. that's about it.
I always: mess things up
I believe: in fairies
I feel alone: this week
I listen: to Depeche Mode in my sleep when Miles isn't here
I hide: in my closet to be alone and write stuff
I drive: like a crazy person I hear
I sing: fucking horribly
I dance: never
I write: junk.. one day I'll keep it organized
I play: with my own emotions
I miss: my true friends
I search: for how I want my life to end up like
I learn: nothing.
I feel: scared
I know: I mess my own life up
I say: depressing things
I succeed: at my work
I dream: to live happily ever after with one special person
I wonder: what a smile looks like
I want: someone to be with me right now. Anyone really. I hate loneliness
I give: people my puppy cause I hate it
I fell: for my boyfriend the first time we ever hung out.
I fight: because people are mean
I am: depressed

ME ME ME ME ME ME

First real kiss: when I was 17
First job: at JC Penney

First screen name: Yumkandy
First self-purchased album: TLC

First funeral: my best best best friend Susan's dad.

First pet: FiFi the poodle

First piercing: ears when I was 4 monthes old.
First true love: Ian Keller

Last big car ride: from Elko to Phoenix

Last kiss : this drunk guy kissed my hand last night

Last good cry: this morning
Last movie seen: Nightmare Before X-mas

Last beverage drank : Mocha

Last food consumed: I don't remember
Last phone call: Miles

Last TV show watched: Simpsons

Last shoes worn: Leopard slippers

Last CD played: The Format

Last item bought : a lollipop

Last disappointment: myself or maybe my mother

Last soda drank: Root Beer

Last ice cream eaten: Vanilla

Last shirt worn: green tank top

Spell your first name backwards: Ylil

Where do you live?: Mesa, AZ

{DESCRIBE YOUR}

[Wallet]: cherries
[Jewelry worn daily]: 2 gauge plugs, and 3 rings in one and 4 in the other

[Coffee cup]: I have too many.. most are in tucson

[shoes]: pink converses

[favorite pants]: any of the black ones I wear to work

[CD in stereo right now]: Format in my room, and Dane Cook, MM, Orgy, Brassy, MSI, Champion, 2 Zao cd's, AFI, and some others
[What are you wearing now]: grey hoodie, and red skirt
[After this]: going to lay down
[Talking to]: Tucson Beth
[Eating]: nothing

[something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month]: hopefully going to Vegas.. but I probably won't go.
[Something that you are deathly afraid of?]: secrets

[Do you believe in love]: yes I do. Very much so

[Do you believe in love at first sight]: kinda

[pet]: a fucker named Zero formally known as Benito

[What are 3 places you wouldn't mind relocating to?]: Tucson, Vegas, or Denmark
[What are some of your favorite pig out foods?]: strawberries

[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]: My friend Susan
[In the last 24 hours, have you]

[Cried:]: yes

[Bought something:] no

[Gotten sick]: still sick
[Sang:] no

[Best Friends:] Beau
[Hobbies:] none
[Are you center of attention or the wallflower:] probably a wallflower, depends who I'm hanging out with
[What type of automobile do you drive:] chevy cavalier
[What type automobile do you wish you drove:] cadillac

[Where is the best hangout:] tucson and vegas

[Do you have a job:]preschool teacher and a hostess
[Do you attend church:] no
[Do you like being around people:]not anymore