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yes. i am going to be emo now. disregard this is you care none what so ever.
i could be like everyone else and run around saying "life isnt fair" and "god my life sucks." well guess what, you dont complete my life. i'm fine without you. i am tired of being some hopeless romantic chasing you around, loving you to death and you only pretending. i'm simply sick of it, yet... in a way it is nothing but my life. something i cant help. i'm not quite sure anymore. all i know is that for the past week you have been in every dream i've had, whether it be in my slumber or merely in my dazed thoughts. nevertheless, you are there my dear. you never really realize how much you long for something, someone, until you long for it subconciously. it seems to me that if are in a straight state of mind and you think about this person then it is as if the thought is forced because you made yourself think of them. however in a dream it is nothing but your mind controling you, nothing but subconcious, something you have absolutely no power over and the things you think cannot be helped. mind you i do not wish to help these thoughts, i love it that they're there, other than the fact it leaves me feeling hopelessly empty and alone when i awaken from this state. i dont believe that i can say i love you, for it's only a crush. but i know you well and have for i suppose almost half a year and what i know of you is enough to have me convinced. i could list the things that i love so much about you but i believe there is not enough time in the world nor space for this list. point being you've caught my eye for quite some time and truth be told i havent the slightest idea what i wish to come of it or what shall. so although you are taken and things as they are in my mind can probably never be so in this wretched reality, i wait... i wait.
i could be like everyone else and run around saying "life isnt fair" and "god my life sucks." well guess what, you dont complete my life. i'm fine without you. i am tired of being some hopeless romantic chasing you around, loving you to death and you only pretending. i'm simply sick of it, yet... in a way it is nothing but my life. something i cant help. i'm not quite sure anymore. all i know is that for the past week you have been in every dream i've had, whether it be in my slumber or merely in my dazed thoughts. nevertheless, you are there my dear. you never really realize how much you long for something, someone, until you long for it subconciously. it seems to me that if are in a straight state of mind and you think about this person then it is as if the thought is forced because you made yourself think of them. however in a dream it is nothing but your mind controling you, nothing but subconcious, something you have absolutely no power over and the things you think cannot be helped. mind you i do not wish to help these thoughts, i love it that they're there, other than the fact it leaves me feeling hopelessly empty and alone when i awaken from this state. i dont believe that i can say i love you, for it's only a crush. but i know you well and have for i suppose almost half a year and what i know of you is enough to have me convinced. i could list the things that i love so much about you but i believe there is not enough time in the world nor space for this list. point being you've caught my eye for quite some time and truth be told i havent the slightest idea what i wish to come of it or what shall. so although you are taken and things as they are in my mind can probably never be so in this wretched reality, i wait... i wait.