life as it is today ...
awesome weekend ... thank you laureli and justin
my life is in shambles ... i cant seem to breath life into it, cant even sort it out to see whats going on ... its upsetting to me that i feel like i have no control any longer ...
everything ive ever worked hard for seems in vain ... i have nothing to show and im going nowhere ... my life has taken its end and thrown it in my face ... im not sure whats happening here with me over the next few years ... honestly im not sure where ill be or who ill be ... what ill be doing or who ill be doing it with.
my life in seattle seems soo far away ... im seeing it now as a start to a new beginning .. but then i realize i need to finish what is here before i run to what is there ... im sorry guys ... it will be awhile before i join you , though i love you like i have never felt before.
im out again ... im still searching for that boy i know is within myself ... my friends my family ... everyone close to me is of no help ... i need to find myself, my happiness... and my contentment with my life ... im falling into the same routines ... the same carefree revolutions that have hurt me soo much in the past ... alll i can say is "its going to be a long cold, solitary winter", and again ... i tell myself "if i can survive this year ... next year can only treat me better"
take care of yourselves .. my friends ... my family
XacX
mutha fuckin seattle blood crew
my life is in shambles ... i cant seem to breath life into it, cant even sort it out to see whats going on ... its upsetting to me that i feel like i have no control any longer ...
everything ive ever worked hard for seems in vain ... i have nothing to show and im going nowhere ... my life has taken its end and thrown it in my face ... im not sure whats happening here with me over the next few years ... honestly im not sure where ill be or who ill be ... what ill be doing or who ill be doing it with.
my life in seattle seems soo far away ... im seeing it now as a start to a new beginning .. but then i realize i need to finish what is here before i run to what is there ... im sorry guys ... it will be awhile before i join you , though i love you like i have never felt before.
im out again ... im still searching for that boy i know is within myself ... my friends my family ... everyone close to me is of no help ... i need to find myself, my happiness... and my contentment with my life ... im falling into the same routines ... the same carefree revolutions that have hurt me soo much in the past ... alll i can say is "its going to be a long cold, solitary winter", and again ... i tell myself "if i can survive this year ... next year can only treat me better"
take care of yourselves .. my friends ... my family
XacX
mutha fuckin seattle blood crew