I have a confession..

Oct 23, 2004 10:34

I have a confession to make. It's not a big confession and it's not anything remotely deserving of worry. If that made sense. The truth is that I think I'm getting worse. I'm too emotional. I'm too sensitive. I give in too easily. Suicide sounds too good right now. And I don't want it to be that way. I want to be strong, even when she's weak. I want to be able to tell her she can do better.. and I know she can. I know she can stop. I have so much faith in her. You have no idea. I really am in love with her. And it scares me. I don't want to hurt like this. I want to be 'normal.' And I don't think I ever will be. I want her to stop smoking and cutting. And maybe she'll do it for me. I don't know. I just really hope so. Maybe if I wasn't so emotional and moody and bitchy she'd stop. But I'm not sure. I just want her to be strong.. :/

Baby- I love you with my entire heart. I'd do anything to make you strong. I'm always here for you, even if it feels like I'm far away. I'm all yours and I never want to have to leave you.. please. I really hope you come over tonight. I love you so much<3

And Mr. Bew- shut the fuck up.

Oh wait.. and Ash and Con and John- You guys are the best friends ever. I love you guys<3
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