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Well its offical I'm all emo again...for no reason...well theres a reason and its pretty much the same reason...love it blows it bites it sucks...all of those love verbs choosen to describe it fit at this moment...every where I fuckin turn someones in love with someone else and guess what people...I don't love anyone..not even myself at this point...I just wanna give up...my mind tells me too but my heart still holds on to the that little piece of hope that says I'll find someone and fall in love but I don't think so...you can't look for love and find it it finds you..but you know what I can't fucking help that I look for it...I'm so tired of being lonely...I Really fuckin 'm cause guess what all my friends say they were too but they all had boyfriends before I never actually had a really boyfriend and all the guys I like wind up being assholes or have girlyfriends they love...BLAH!!!! to tell you the truth I think loves bullshit...I really do...I just wish I didn't need it...::Sigh:: I'm so emotional with this shit...some times I actually wish I had to the balls to do something about it but I don't I'm a pussy and besides being utterly lonely I have a great family and wonderful friends and it would seem pointless to waste all of that over something that people find so petty...well I'm gonna go now...sweet dreams to all......