blah...I'm just venting about things because life is no fun right now.
I know that I'm being stupid and everything else but it really sucks not having friends. I know I have people that like me and maybe occasionally hang out with me or talk to me online, but I don't have any real friends that I can see all the time. Chris is out at least twice a week with his friend Jeff and I get left at home bored. I could go with him but trust me when I say that it's not exactly my idea of a party to go with him, no offense to Jeff of course =] but I'm not that into fishtanks, guns, and what not.
I miss Viviana, she visited me over her holiday vacation which was nice and I did hang out with Jo and Sarah a week or so ago which was fantastic, but Viv is in school again and Jo is very busy because it's her senior year and she's working everyday and lives out in Goffstown now. I'm just being stupid and I could just call someone but im stupid and feel awkward doing so if I haven't talked to them in a long while.
I have so much free time that i don't even know what to do with myself. I don't have a job right now, even though I am looking and its becoming very difficult, so money is non-existant. I'm so sick of being in the house alllll day long because Chris and I fight all the time over stupid shit because we are bored and can't go out to do anything because there is no gas in the car. My parents are just as broke as I am, because there is no snow so my step dad has no work to do. My best friend aside from Chris is my fucking rabbit and it sucks. I love her but she shouldn't be my only friend =[ My highlight of the week is going to school because it gets me out of the house. I cry everyday and I need a change sooo badly and everything is just terrible.
Sorry for venting and seeming like I'm crying for pity and sympathy but I swear I'm not, I've been holding everything in for so long that I'm fit to bursting and this isn't even all that's bugging me! Ughh.
I miss Viviana, she visited me over her holiday vacation which was nice and I did hang out with Jo and Sarah a week or so ago which was fantastic, but Viv is in school again and Jo is very busy because it's her senior year and she's working everyday and lives out in Goffstown now. I'm just being stupid and I could just call someone but im stupid and feel awkward doing so if I haven't talked to them in a long while.
I have so much free time that i don't even know what to do with myself. I don't have a job right now, even though I am looking and its becoming very difficult, so money is non-existant. I'm so sick of being in the house alllll day long because Chris and I fight all the time over stupid shit because we are bored and can't go out to do anything because there is no gas in the car. My parents are just as broke as I am, because there is no snow so my step dad has no work to do. My best friend aside from Chris is my fucking rabbit and it sucks. I love her but she shouldn't be my only friend =[ My highlight of the week is going to school because it gets me out of the house. I cry everyday and I need a change sooo badly and everything is just terrible.
Sorry for venting and seeming like I'm crying for pity and sympathy but I swear I'm not, I've been holding everything in for so long that I'm fit to bursting and this isn't even all that's bugging me! Ughh.