these damn tears hurt...

[xbleedingxeyesx]

i thought the tears of the past were gone and right as i was getting through all my problems they crept right back up on me....
the tears that fall,
they fall heavy...
taring apart every part of me they touch,
im bleeding...
i think im going to die...
the tears that run down my face are red with blood,
all the years i hid from you and you finally found me...
you found me and hurt me...
and now itll be the last time that youll ever hurt me,
you made these tears flow before,
and you did it again,
but this time ill make sure it never happens again...
and because of you ive been up everynight scared,
i havent slept i wink in days...
but this is the last straw,
now im angrier than ever...
ill make sure you get what you deserve,
all this has brought me to life and made me realize all the horrible things you are capable of...
i feel protected and safe finally,
and now there is nothing worse,
nothing worse than me feeling safe again cause now that i feel safe i have the will power to fight back against you...
so now its your turn to go and hide...
hide from me,
im out to get you....

this world sucks,
this life i live sucks...
you suck...
but the one who makes me feel safe,
the one who cares...
you i miss and care for so much...
and i dont think i can tell you enough how muv=ch i am thankful to have you in my life
and i cant thank you enough for helping me in my darkest and most needful hours...
so one more time thank you...
- <3 -

so lets play hide and seek...
you hide and ill seek you out,
with i knife in my hand!!!

- <3 -