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Friday the 13th was just like most Friday the 13ths... different. I got some decent work hours in. Luke and WOODIE met me at work and we went up to Ames. On the way back I'm just driving along 69 and all of the sudden I'm like "so uh... lights behind me... coming fast". At this point everyone in the car has a heart attack and I pull over after realizing it's only an ambulance but.... I got stuck. It's a good thing I had some strong men in the car to push me out. Finally, after we all calmed down, we got to Ankeny and met up with Linc and then Matt. We played pool at Matt's for a while and I kicked his ass but then Luke killed us all in 9-ball.
Matt and his brother went bowling so we just went home and then I had to go to bed at a decent time because I was supposed to work this morning at 10 but after getting up and getting out of the shower, my boss calls and tells me that I don't need to come in and that he meant to tell me yesturday. Damnit. Anyway, I had a good breakfast with my dad and then fell back asleep until noon. I had some crazy dreams too.
We went and saw my grandma today. At first I was fighting tears because she's so skinny now and apparently she has pnemonia and had to have oxygen the entire time. Right away my cousin gave grandma the new baby who was crying and even though she has alzheimers and doesn't really talk to anyone, she rocked her and immediatly began singing the same song she used to sing to my parents and us kids. It was insane. Then she just kept talking to my sister, sometimes not really making any sense but I caught a few things and it really blew me away some of the things she said. Mostly when I heard her say "and we went gently", or something close to that.
I remember when I was younger and she would tell me that her time was almost up and she knew it, she was ok with it. That was probably 7 years ago, if not more. Today was the worst I've ever seen her physically but she was in pretty good spirits mostly. She didn't look at me until we were leaving and she pointed at me and laughed. She was laughing all the time we were there. Partly I wondered if it was the oxygen or if she was just so happy to see us. She pointed at me like she remembered me. Mom always told me about how much she adored me.
Today was the first time since she's been in the nursing home that I actually heard her tell anyone that she loved them without them saying it first. She even gave people kisses on her own. It annoys me so much that these small things that used to happen so often without effort are so rare now. I miss her.
Matt and his brother went bowling so we just went home and then I had to go to bed at a decent time because I was supposed to work this morning at 10 but after getting up and getting out of the shower, my boss calls and tells me that I don't need to come in and that he meant to tell me yesturday. Damnit. Anyway, I had a good breakfast with my dad and then fell back asleep until noon. I had some crazy dreams too.
We went and saw my grandma today. At first I was fighting tears because she's so skinny now and apparently she has pnemonia and had to have oxygen the entire time. Right away my cousin gave grandma the new baby who was crying and even though she has alzheimers and doesn't really talk to anyone, she rocked her and immediatly began singing the same song she used to sing to my parents and us kids. It was insane. Then she just kept talking to my sister, sometimes not really making any sense but I caught a few things and it really blew me away some of the things she said. Mostly when I heard her say "and we went gently", or something close to that.
I remember when I was younger and she would tell me that her time was almost up and she knew it, she was ok with it. That was probably 7 years ago, if not more. Today was the worst I've ever seen her physically but she was in pretty good spirits mostly. She didn't look at me until we were leaving and she pointed at me and laughed. She was laughing all the time we were there. Partly I wondered if it was the oxygen or if she was just so happy to see us. She pointed at me like she remembered me. Mom always told me about how much she adored me.
Today was the first time since she's been in the nursing home that I actually heard her tell anyone that she loved them without them saying it first. She even gave people kisses on her own. It annoys me so much that these small things that used to happen so often without effort are so rare now. I miss her.