(killing time)
so i'm back to being completely lost. it seems like everything is ok, but for some reason there's still something missing. maybe it's the fact that all my free time has been spent at the hort building trying to get this project done. i haven't really been able to do anything else. that's really starting to piss me off. but after tomorrow at 5 i'll have free time again. hopefully it should be a productive and relaxing week. i'm looking forward to that. then the weekend will be chaotic and busier than shit, i still have yet to figure out how to get everything done that needs to be accomplished, but i'm sure i'll figure that out. by this point i'm just typing for the sake of moving my fingers, so you can stop paying attention. i really don't know what to do musically. i'm so confused with genres, i'm not sure what to go for. i like it all, i want to do it all. i don't know if i can do any of it. there's always something holding me back, whether its me or other people. fuck. i need so much more equipment to do what i want to do, but i can't really afford it. so now i need to figure out what one thing i'm going to get and pray that its the right one. as long as nothing else i have breaks, i might be in decent shape. i guess its time for bed, 5 hours of sleep sounds good.
goodnight.
goodnight.