blah.
so as of now, i'm just kinda lost on so many levels. i didn't realize that many people in the house look up to me. it really doesn't make any sense, when someone is sitting there complaining to me about the same shit i'm dealing with. i just choose to not show it, that doesn't mean its not htere. its always there, as of this moment, my life is a complete fucking mess. but i'd really rather not get into any of that. i just don't want to be alone, i really can't take it. fuck.