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So today was possibly the weirdest day ever.
Julia is retarded and thinks to herself, 'hey, it's 7am, lets give zach a wake up call even though he does not have to be up for a couple hours.' The previous few days I hadn't been sleeping too well, but nothing horrible (6 hours per night or so). So I'm doing relatively fine as i'm at 7th ave filling out all the orientation paperwork before I actually get hired. As the day progresses, I start to feel worse and worse. We finish orientation and I'm driving home consciously aware of all the normal things that I don't have to think about when I'm driving.
Then it hits me. I start imagining all these depressing things happening to me (like getting into a car accident because i'm so tired, but nobody notices and I bleed to death).These kind of thoughts stopped all of a sudden, and at the same time I'm telling myself, this is not rational thinking and try to continue on with my day just like I normally would. As I'm heading back to 7th ave it starts to feel like i'm on drugs. Well, what I'd imagine drugs would feel like. I can't remember any specifics, but I just remember thinking about things in totally different ways than I've ever thought about them before. I blew my mind. Seriously. As soon as I start interacting with my coworkers at 7th ave, I realize things are not quite the same as they usually are. The next couple of hours I didn't feel like myself at all. I was a third person watching my actions from a distance, but I was still able to for the most part act like I would on a day-to-day basis. It felt like I was in control of someone elses body. I still cannot fathom that all this happened. It was surreal, to say the least.
And now I'm off of work, and I'm not tired. What the fuck.
2 weeks until I graduate!
Julia is retarded and thinks to herself, 'hey, it's 7am, lets give zach a wake up call even though he does not have to be up for a couple hours.' The previous few days I hadn't been sleeping too well, but nothing horrible (6 hours per night or so). So I'm doing relatively fine as i'm at 7th ave filling out all the orientation paperwork before I actually get hired. As the day progresses, I start to feel worse and worse. We finish orientation and I'm driving home consciously aware of all the normal things that I don't have to think about when I'm driving.
Then it hits me. I start imagining all these depressing things happening to me (like getting into a car accident because i'm so tired, but nobody notices and I bleed to death).These kind of thoughts stopped all of a sudden, and at the same time I'm telling myself, this is not rational thinking and try to continue on with my day just like I normally would. As I'm heading back to 7th ave it starts to feel like i'm on drugs. Well, what I'd imagine drugs would feel like. I can't remember any specifics, but I just remember thinking about things in totally different ways than I've ever thought about them before. I blew my mind. Seriously. As soon as I start interacting with my coworkers at 7th ave, I realize things are not quite the same as they usually are. The next couple of hours I didn't feel like myself at all. I was a third person watching my actions from a distance, but I was still able to for the most part act like I would on a day-to-day basis. It felt like I was in control of someone elses body. I still cannot fathom that all this happened. It was surreal, to say the least.
And now I'm off of work, and I'm not tired. What the fuck.
2 weeks until I graduate!